Do you ever hate it when people expect way more than you can afford, although you have done your best? As if it’s not even enough to make you feel bad about yourself, they even say it.
Well, I am sorry but I am not sorry for who I am. I might be not that good for you but I am perfect to someone else or something else. It’s my fault that I picked the wrong address. Lately, I’ve been giving it much of a thought if I actually picked the wrong life, the wrong future. I don’t know if it’s just my fears or my parents’ talking about how much of a failure I am, or it’s just the normal worry of people in my age. I just know that I love what I want to study but in a different way than my parents and family’s vision. It’s not like I also have loads of options to pick. Also if I want that future I want I will have to change things 180 degrees and work really but really hard. Let’s say a MAJOR change of plans.
I might be spoiled and irresponsible as my father say or stupid enough that I don’t know what’s good for me like my mum says. I might be doing nothing all day long except watching tv shows or surfing the internet, but I am at least trying to find my own peace because I can’t find it in my life. The peace I mean too isn’t actually relaxing, but actually doing something meaningful, that actually shows who I am.
I am sorry but I am not sorry for who I am. It doesn’t matter to me how you see me, I know who I am and I am happy to be her.
Always welcomed to the corner,