The joyful bitterness of new life stations

Are you going to university next year like me? To high school/college? Getting promoted? Or even getting married soon ๐Ÿ˜€ Those all new stations life, don’t you think?

Those life changing points can fill us with hope and fear. It fill us with hopeful dreams and smiles but stomachaches when we realise what kind of dilemma we might get through. Sometimes It can be more than just a new stage of life and sometimes it can be life changing only for us. However, we all still have those day dreams of our new life that most of the times ,if not all of it, turns 180 degree opposite to what happens in real life. Sometimes worse and other times really mind blowing. I reached to the point that I started enjoy those day dreams before I get hit with the real life, I don’t know if it’s my over imagination or luck but for me mostly turns really way way worse than I imagined. Somehow I still find the strength and hope in me to be optimistic and tell myself that one day things will go really well. That the next turning point in my life will be my lucky chapter of my life. All I need is just patience and hope. But I keep asking myself the same question every night, when? How?

Lately, I started to get convinced with the idea that whatever new experience, life stage I have in life is just the end and the starting point. The end to an old chapter and the beginning of a fresh one. I realised that when or how isn’t matter of waiting, because at the end of the day the answer to those question is me. It’s me who can say when and how. When to stop waiting for karma or for a fairy. It’s me if I want to change tomorrow, now all I have to do is get my mind to it and work. Just that simple. However, I have to get the idea that it doesn’t matter what kind of new life I am going to lead or a new chapter of my book of life, it comes with responsibilities.

Yup! That’s it’s bitter sweetness. You got the top marks to get to university, that’s amazing! But I am sorry to break the news for you, it’s not as joyful as you think it is. It comes with loads of responsibilities, loads of hard work. Just try your best to hold to it so tightly. Don’t let your dreams fly away from you.

My point is that what you have always dreamed about your new steps in your life is true, it’s there but nothing is perfect, right? All you have to do is to enjoy to the max. ,even if it wan’t as much as you have expected it to be, and try your best to make the bitter part of it has the least effect on your enjoyment. ๐Ÿ™‚

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

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It has been more than a year

Today is my birthday. Thank you if you wished me a happy birthday while reading this :D. Normally, I look at my day when I am about to sleep and think of my mistakes and good points that I have done, kind of revising myself. Same I do to my years. This year felt more than just 365 days for me. Like the time got stretched or something.

This year made me laugh, get frustrated, feel the love and the hate. It didn’t me cry anyway, As I promised myself 2 years ago that I will never cry again that I nearly forgot how it feels to let your tears run down your cheeks. However, I made my promise for another year. It might not be a good choice or a promise to make but sometimes when I am on the edge of just shedding a tear, that power of sadness and crying is somehow turned to strength, maybe even anger. I’ve met new people. Some of them were always there but I just knew them this year. Some others are brand new. Even the people I thought I ย knew some of them turned out different than I knew them for the best or the worse. I can say that people this year didn’t exactly disappoint me, maybe even taught me valuable lessons. And most important one that I kept reminded with is that, people simply change.

There were moments that I felt my life is falling a part like Autumn leaves. Some others made me feel that I am an inch away from toughing the sky. Life is up and down, true! I just learnt to enjoy the ups and stay strong during the downs to enjoy the next up. I also had some achievements like finishing my IGCSEs with great results. I got more involved and took more responsibilities in my family and life, which I think strengthened me than ever and it will keep strengthening me. I can’t deny that I had wished to accomplish more, but ,hopefully, I still have another year to do more and more.

At the end of the day, it was more than just a year to me. It was kind of a punch in the face but it was worth it. It woke me up a little more and opened my eyes and mind for a lot of things. It made me re-think about many people and strategies. Just remember one thing. Do the good to find it. I know it might be hard to do but try to stick to it. However, do good as long as you can and someone deserves it. Because otherwise, you might suffer rather than finding the good.

Wish you all a happy day and Birthday if someone’s birthday is today too ๐Ÿ˜‰ :D. Stay strong, passionate and blessed.

Always Welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

It’s all a wave

How many times we have planned and thought about the future when things went into the other direction? When we lose hope, but happiness comes knocking on our doors or sadness come blinding us with it’s darkness in the time that we thoughts we we will never shed a tear.

C’est la vie! It takes you to a different place everyday. sometimes it can make you out of your mind like, what on earth am I doing here? Or wake up one morning and you are no longer having the same surname or even worse, you don’t have a name at all. However, after all we still wake up every morning with some hope in our hearts even if we can’ feel it. It’s there. We are weird creatures, you know? We are unbreakable! Even in our hardest times we don’t give up easily, Why? Because unlike other species we hate it. We even love ourselves more sometimes to let it lose to the world or to others. We all selfish. Yes, it’s like a component in us. But obviously, the amount of selfishness differs from on to another, but the end of the day we love ourselves.

Although life can put us in hard or happy situations, we know that it won’t last long. Like when you laugh so hard and then feel a pain in your chest as you know that tomorrow you might cry as much as you are laughing now. It’s all about time. When will things change. That’s what keeps us hold and strong. Not all of us sometimes, but at least we stay as much as we can, we enjoy s much as we can, we fight as much as we can. Eventually, we all get tired at some point. The lucky between us are the ones who find where to charge their energy from. The charger can be a person you love, a friend, a lover or sometimes a song or a memory. If you know what is your charger you lucky enough to be warrior in this life.

After all, what’s important of them all is to keep the idea in your mind and heart, that it’s all a wave. It will come and go. Therefore, you don’t have to depend o it so much as if you depended that something isn’t going to change and leaned to the wall of confidence that everything will stay as it’s, one day you might fall really bad. Facts are just facts for sometime. Remember that the word ‘Forever’ is the biggest lie ever. So, simply know that you are and going to laugh or cry all the way.

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

The buried glory

I am that kind of person who gets impressed by the hidden beauty or nice surprises. However, I’ve discovered that surprises and beauty can not only in objects or birthday present but people too has a lot hidden. That’s what impresses me most though.

What does people hide? Well, we all have our own secrets. Our own hidden hobbies, so on. Some of these can be pleasant and some can be really unsatisfying. Some of these also can be hidden by our own choice and some can be there but we just don’t know about it. Let’s just talk about the pleasant, hidden ones by our own will.

For example, I think I can do a lot of stuff. Like I love presentations, photographing, singing, I love thinking of new ideas and go after them to make them done, etc. Although people says that I am not good at them much but others say that I am better than I think I am. I am not afraid of people’s numbers or going on stage or getting to know people or talk to strangers when I can. Not everyone like me and that’s what makes from us all special people. I like debating and discussing topics. The problem is that, I never had the chance. Even if I had it, the conditions never helped me to take it or prove what I have inside me. When I think of it I feel like I had a hidden glory, a buried one inside me that is full of dust and all I want is to blow that dust and make it shine and out to the people. In other words, I want to show it.

Sometimes I don’t have the chance because of foolish thinking of me that I will never make it, other times it’s because f I took the chance it might affect others not only me. But what’s most often is that I am not even allowed the chance. Don’t get me wrong, I try my best for what I want and once I want something which is not going to be a problem or cause any kind of injustice I do all I can to get it. Well, as an example, my mum sometimes says that I don’t fight enough for it but I am sure that I would have done all I can to get it. The difference is that mum wasn’t there to see it.

Just with every time I don’t get the chance or get stopped for any kind of reason I believe that one day when I get the chance nothing is going to stop. I promise myself that I might not given the opportunity to do what I like in my childhood or old years for different reasons but I will never allow that to happen again. I promise myself that I won’t let anyone or anything stop me from being who I want to be. From shinning. I still wonder about each one of your glories. I wonder in what way will you shine, will the world shine. I am almost 17 but I will still always look at people and the world around me like a 5 years old kid who can’t wait for people to leave the room so I can rush to the birthday gift and rip them to reveal what’s inside.

Believe in your glory ๐Ÿ˜‰

What do you think is your glory? ๐Ÿ˜€

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

The trip of life

When someone talk about getting older or birthdays, for some reason I remember Joey at the show โ€œfriendsโ€ when he was 30. Itโ€™s a really funny , but the idea is that why people hate growing up?

I am sure that most of us like new experiences. Growing up is a new experience! Well, at least you go new places, as you are a kid you go toย  the kindergarten and school, then you grow up a little and you go to college and then to university and every time you go to a new stage in your life is an adventure! Remember your feeling on the first day of every stage of this? Even in your life, you first toy, then best friends, the love of your life, engagement, marriage. When you got your driving license, ID or passport.

Time makes from us different kind of people. Like do you remember yourself a year ago? Do you remember your interests? Hair cut? The same mindset?ย  Now if you looked in the mirror, are you the same person? I am sure your answered would be at least 98% no. Growing up also doesnโ€™t mean you are getting older! Yeah, responsibilities are getting heavier on you and life might not be easier than it used to be. Thatโ€™s so true. Just think of the bright side! You might now have a friend to lean your back on when things go south. You might have a partner in your life who shares your joyย  with you. You have known much more and explored the better part of the world or even just knew things that if you stayed a kid who is living with no responsibilities might never even know that those things exits.

The bottom line is that growing up doesnโ€™t mean death or being old as people think or say. Itโ€™s nothing to be ashamed of actually! Itโ€™s something impressive that worth the living! Just think of life as a train with stations. You canโ€™t stop the train but you can enjoy your time during the trip! ๐Ÿ˜‰

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

You don’t have to master it to do it

How many of us love singing, dancing, drawing well but actually can’t do any of these good enough? At the end of the day, you love them then do them! You don’t have to be an expert to enjoy your heart.

I love singing, writing and drawing. In general. Well, I am not a really good singer, but I do sing when I can or able to. I am writing now as you can see (I am even writing my very own first novel now) and I draw when I feel the urge to. ย Loads and loads of things and people tried to stop me from doing these things. These little things makes me feel happy when I am blue. Many people might see it silly or because it’s unprofessional, then it’s a waste of time. And first of these people is even my mother. However, I still do it. I may not be perfect but who is?! I just enjoy it!

Practicing makes you perfect. Therefore, maybe your drawing this time doesn’t look like it’s related to a human being by any chance, but maybe the next one it would be a better portrait ๐Ÿ˜‰ As long as hope and the fire of determination is in your heart, then you can go places. How many people said I can’t and they are now Nobel Prize winners, public figures and more. Even if you didn’t get to be any of those, you at least feel happiness when you hold you pen to write, the mic to sing or the guitar to play. Remember how happy were you when you were child, it was when you had no chains, the chains of the society. Like when you are in a party and you don’t want to dance so you don’t have to look funny or be an embarrassment. That might be true, yeah well no one would like to embarrassed but that doesn’t mean you can’t dance at all. Be yourself, at least with yourself.

My point is that happiness comes from you. You can make yourself the happiest or the saddest person on earth. The simple things count, sometimes even more than the huge things. Don’t let people decide how you would cheer yourself. Free yourself from people’s tongues. And enjoy being silly and happy though, you deserve it, you even need it sometimes ๐Ÿ˜‰ :D.

Always welcomed to the corner,\

Menna Xx

You are a different type of roses

How many of us have been working to satisfy their parents or to become someone who people would like or appreciate? Unfortunately, it doesn’t matter how much you try, you are different.

There are different generations and minds. like you are not like your parents and your children aren’t going to be like you. If you want to enjoy your life and be the better version of you, You don’t need to copy your ancestors. Taking their advise, though, is important. After all they lived a part of the history that you didn’t live. It doesn’t matter how hard you try to make people like you, the expectations will always be high and by the time it might destroy you than build you.

For long time , myself, my father has always had high expectations of me, same is my mum. I’ve always followed their way of living and by the time as I grew up and started realizing who I want to actually be. It was the time when I found that if I followed my dad, my mother won’t like it and vice versa. Therefore, their expectations turned from being my goals to a cause of stress. Therefore, I started my own expectations. My goals that are for me stress-worthy. Because I will never be as great as my parents became. Why? Because the circumstances are different. the thought is different. The people are different.

In the past, people were simple in everything; their thoughts, life styles. Everything. Now simplicity is just a mirage. Life now is more complicated. So you can’t compare my life with theirs. I might not seems as great as they think of seeing me, but if they saw the hard rocks and things that I passed to reach who I am now, maybe that would be something to appreciate and might even by time these rocks might be harder by time. Harder than theirs at the time.

This blog is for parents and children. I am sure you want your son or daughter to be the best thing in the world. However, does it matter if your son or daughter want to be something else than how wonderful you picture them? Maybe how amazing you want them to be would be great but will it make them happy? Just stay behind them, support them and advise them when needed. Keep the lectures away please and start the action. Start showing them how you love them instead of saying it after every fight over some different opinions. Actually, why fighting? What about sitting down and talking like adults? I know I know, it might be hard for some and it can go out of control, but believe me after fighting or scolding the results would be 100x worse than discussing. I am telling that as a teenager. Still remember that everyone is different ๐Ÿ™‚

The most important thing is to find your aim fast enough and stay behind it and don’t give up easily. Be yourself! It doesn’t matter if you want to be a professor, an artist or even a president :D. You can be whoever you want to be and will still be great! Greatest of the greatest, in your own special way ๐Ÿ˜‰

At the end of the day, I wish everyone luck and a new, joyful academic year ๐Ÿ˜€

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

There is only one end

Have you ever thought about the after ends? Lately I’ve been thinking about all the starts that have happened to me after ends. The new fresh starts that I had just when I said that’s it, it’s the definitely the end.

When things end, it’s usually the end of a chapter in our lives but not the end of the book. Even nature is the same. When a plant dies ,for example, it’s the start for a new life of another plant. Like how many times have you cried about ending a relationship or a friendship, when it was actually the fresh start of a new one? How many times when you got to leave a job or school and you thought that’s it, I can’t achieve my dreams anymore, it was actually the start of a new career or future that you have never thought of?

We are the ones who end things ourselves, things don’t end on their own. the end is when we lose hope, when we stop in our places convinced it’s the end. Therefore, if you want new starts, don’t stop. Believe in yourself and in your dreams, heart and thoughts. Don’t just let go of it that easy just because it just ended, or even if it ended don’t stay home mourning, if you want a new start, then go on! Get yourself a fresh start.

I know that for some people would be hard to start over after a hard experience, but just know that we can’t stop breathing or stop the cycle of our lives to stop. Therefore, either starting now or later, you will start again from some point. The idea here is that the earlier you start, the faster you develop and get over your aches. Don’t judge yourself or punish it for wrong choices or decisions you might have taken in the past, and don’t forget them either. Actually think of them but think of them as shadows of the past. Lessons learnt, without their ache. In another way, think of them, but don’t feel the. Don’t feel the pain again when you didn’t get into your dream job or college, when you broke up with someone who you thought that this person is the one. You felt it once, lived it ones. Don’t you think it’s enough tears already? Isn’t it time to move on and instead of regretting how it ended, think of how you can make a new start of it. Applying to other jobs with other fields that you might be interested at, maybe even better at them than the other one?

Think of the happy ending. The real one, the one that is actually the end of the book. The full picture. Every time you end a chapter, look forward to the end of the book. The end that will keep you satisfied. The success, the happiness, the love. ๐Ÿ™‚

What’s your ideas of the book ending ๐Ÿ˜‰ :D?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Are you a miracle?

People say that miracles ages are gone. Believe it or not, there are still a lot of miracles around us. We just don’t them.

You are a miracle yourself. Think of how many hard or unbelievable situations you have been into and survived them. Think of who you are. Your presence itself is a miracle, isn’t it? It doesn’t matter how you think of yourself as a simple human being, there is something unique in you that no one has. Think of yourself as if you are a stranger. As if you are your enemy and lover. Your enemy sees you strong, unbreakable and that’s why you have an enemy. Your lover think that you are one time thing that hardly exits. As you are his/her one unique expensive one, maybe even more expensive and worthy than a diamond.

Think of what you’ve done to people up till now. Like whatever your job is, it off course might have changed at least a small part of someone’s life. We are like gears in a clock. We move together to keep each other moving in the right movement. We are all connected to each other in a way that only the nature can connect us by. Imagine your life in as many scenarios as you can. You will find that in each scenario or story or a choice you might have made different would have made a different result. Isn’t this a miracle itself? Therefore, although we might have different opinions about this but I believe that nothing is a coincidence. Even if it’s not a result of our choices, it’s our fates.

Miracles are everywhere, in you or around you. It only needs to believe in them or at least search them to see them. They are not rare as people see them, they are every where that because of it being naturally around us, people forgot about them. They no longer see them, but once they are no longer there people will see them. That’s why only see the big miracles like miracles, while the truth is that these are not only miracles. They are extra ordinaries that might even be above miracles. Because in my point of view, miracles are so ordinary but because they’ve always been there as I said, we just can no longer notice them.

I have been thinking about that for a moment now until I decided to write about. Just believe that if you believe in yourself, believe in miracles. Believe that you are unique. Just appreciate your uniqueness. ๐Ÿ™‚

What is the best miracle around you? ๐Ÿ˜€

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

 

Will it change by the dawn?

Have you ever kept thinking about something your whole life until suddenly you feel everything no longer make sense as it used to be? Then start asking yourself, when did everything reach that point?

I ask myself that question a lot these days. I am a senior year student this year. Normally that’s the time where you start about who you want to be, what you want. All my life I’ve had that one specific plan or idea of how my life is going to turn out to be. I was so lucky to find out what I want to be since so long, unlike some of my friends. I knew what I want to do at college and university from day on. I knew what type of a woman I wanted to be. I was so blessed with this. I knew how my life would turn out to be. I was that lucky until things around me started to make no more sense as they used to be. Until I found out that the type of woman I want to be is no longer that type who sits around thinking of white dressed or how the wedding would be, unlike most girls.

I found out that i want to be that kind of woman whose name is a trademark, Whose name itself makes from her a warrior. Even then, I knew that I want to be a business woman, which was great! Like I knew that I would be studying business studies and economics and so on. I was lucky that since I made the decision I haven’t changed my mind a bit, until the world actually started to change. ย Now I am thinking of surviving before making my dreams come true. People around me say that I can’t do what I am thinking of and that I am crazy. Even the idea of me learning new skills or languages, my family sees them as a waste of time because at the end of the day whatever i am dreaming of happening will never happen.

Moreover, i am still looked at as a woman. A female who is at the end of the day is going to get married and stay home. The idea that one day I might find my other half is there but after my dreams come true or at least when I find that right other half, not just because the society or my family needs to see me married or a mother. If you are reading this I would love to ask one thing from you. Whoever you are, a father, a mother, a friend or a teacher. Please, never let whoever have a dream to let it go. Because one day, if you let everyone let go of their dreams or the passion of becoming something. the day no one have dreams, is the day when the world is literally over. The day when everything goes and ends. Never force anyone to be what they don’t want to be, please support them and off course give them your advice. Make them happy and strong. Happiness and strength are the keys to the success and better world. And you too when you go after your dream don’t give up easily and take responsibility of your actions, remember it was your choice in the first place. The truth is that we, human beings, don’t learn our lesson until we actually fall and get up again.

Don’t worry if things changed by the dawn or if things no longer make sense. You are still there and as things weren’t making sense in the past, they will again ๐Ÿ™‚

Sorry if that was a long one ๐Ÿ˜€ I just hope that I proved my point ๐Ÿ™‚

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx