Where is the pause button, please?

How many of you got exposed to embarrassing situations that keeps playing over and over again in your mind? I really hate my brain for doing that! The worst part is that my brain fail me in remembering my keys but not those situations.

At that very moment I wish my brain was some kind of a stereo or mp3 player or a DVD just so I can have the ability to have the pause button. To just stop my mind from replying the same scene, the same words and looks over and over again. I wish I could control m brain as in fact my brain is the one in charge. I can’t control my memories, what to show and what to just keep at the very back of my box of memories. Not even deleted because the truth is that as much as those memories sometimes torture me, they keep me alerted and teach me more than one lesson. Although they might be actually hard ones.

I have been exposed to loads of unbearable embarrassing situations that with everyone I came to be in another level. For example, by time I no longer cry of shame, I learnt how to fake the perfect smile and master the most perfect lie to convince people that I might even be made of titanium. It doesn’t matter how bad things can go, I try my best not to crack even to my nearest people. However, it gets so tiring and even more torturing not to open up to someone. Someone who might understand you, feel your agony. If you have that person, just hold tight as much as you can because you two are the only reason that you two are still fighting in this life.

I guess that blog is going to be a little bit short. Despite my pounding headache, I was exposed to one of those embarrassing situations lately and it’s memory keeps flashing back in my head that makes it worse. So I just went on writing this blog, I know somewhere out there is experiencing the same thing. Therefore, I am here to tell you that you are not alone and that you are tougher than what you think and people forget so do you. Just learn from this, rather than being lost in this dilemma of blame and hiding. Maybe your luck is better than mine in finding the pause button 😉

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

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It’s all a wave

How many times we have planned and thought about the future when things went into the other direction? When we lose hope, but happiness comes knocking on our doors or sadness come blinding us with it’s darkness in the time that we thoughts we we will never shed a tear.

C’est la vie! It takes you to a different place everyday. sometimes it can make you out of your mind like, what on earth am I doing here? Or wake up one morning and you are no longer having the same surname or even worse, you don’t have a name at all. However, after all we still wake up every morning with some hope in our hearts even if we can’ feel it. It’s there. We are weird creatures, you know? We are unbreakable! Even in our hardest times we don’t give up easily, Why? Because unlike other species we hate it. We even love ourselves more sometimes to let it lose to the world or to others. We all selfish. Yes, it’s like a component in us. But obviously, the amount of selfishness differs from on to another, but the end of the day we love ourselves.

Although life can put us in hard or happy situations, we know that it won’t last long. Like when you laugh so hard and then feel a pain in your chest as you know that tomorrow you might cry as much as you are laughing now. It’s all about time. When will things change. That’s what keeps us hold and strong. Not all of us sometimes, but at least we stay as much as we can, we enjoy s much as we can, we fight as much as we can. Eventually, we all get tired at some point. The lucky between us are the ones who find where to charge their energy from. The charger can be a person you love, a friend, a lover or sometimes a song or a memory. If you know what is your charger you lucky enough to be warrior in this life.

After all, what’s important of them all is to keep the idea in your mind and heart, that it’s all a wave. It will come and go. Therefore, you don’t have to depend o it so much as if you depended that something isn’t going to change and leaned to the wall of confidence that everything will stay as it’s, one day you might fall really bad. Facts are just facts for sometime. Remember that the word ‘Forever’ is the biggest lie ever. So, simply know that you are and going to laugh or cry all the way.

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

The science of people’s types

I know that I have talked about people’s type in other blogs, but here I mean the literal meaning of people’s type. Life is like a big garden and people are the roses and plants in it. We are really different and similar at the same time.

For example, there are the sad people who might even regret the day they were born. That type is the type that mostly end up alone or failure. There is the other type opposite to it, the happy one. The one that always try their best to make the best laugh out of any situation, or they are overjoyed to even shed a tear. Those are the main two types of people. There is also the energetic one. That one that even if they are kidnapped and tied to a chair, they won’t stop talking or moving anyway. Those are mostly related to the happy, overjoyed category. There is also the one that lost hope so long ago, the one always believe that whatever they do no point of it. They are living just for the meaning of it, just living. Off course that’s related to the sad one. Obviously, there is the opposite of each type. Like there is the lazy person, the hopeful one and so on. And many many other types, that if you noticed people you will find that they are even infinite. Countless that you may lose count of it.

However, people change. We have our seasons too like roses. We are like nature, we can be so calm a moment but a storm the other moment. We are part of the nature therefore, we are like it. A person can be sad, known to be sad but when they get happy, it can be the best smile you can see on their face. A person can be calm or happy, but when they get made, it’s the worse ever. Just like shells that has pearls, they might look a like from outside or even the same most of the time, but when they reveal the rareness in them that can be the surprise that you never expected. Just take care, because not all surprises are awesome.

Always know that this mix is what keeps us going. What makes from us friends, families and lovers. What keeps us stronger 😉

What is the most type of people that amuse you :D?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

You don’t have to master it to do it

How many of us love singing, dancing, drawing well but actually can’t do any of these good enough? At the end of the day, you love them then do them! You don’t have to be an expert to enjoy your heart.

I love singing, writing and drawing. In general. Well, I am not a really good singer, but I do sing when I can or able to. I am writing now as you can see (I am even writing my very own first novel now) and I draw when I feel the urge to.  Loads and loads of things and people tried to stop me from doing these things. These little things makes me feel happy when I am blue. Many people might see it silly or because it’s unprofessional, then it’s a waste of time. And first of these people is even my mother. However, I still do it. I may not be perfect but who is?! I just enjoy it!

Practicing makes you perfect. Therefore, maybe your drawing this time doesn’t look like it’s related to a human being by any chance, but maybe the next one it would be a better portrait 😉 As long as hope and the fire of determination is in your heart, then you can go places. How many people said I can’t and they are now Nobel Prize winners, public figures and more. Even if you didn’t get to be any of those, you at least feel happiness when you hold you pen to write, the mic to sing or the guitar to play. Remember how happy were you when you were child, it was when you had no chains, the chains of the society. Like when you are in a party and you don’t want to dance so you don’t have to look funny or be an embarrassment. That might be true, yeah well no one would like to embarrassed but that doesn’t mean you can’t dance at all. Be yourself, at least with yourself.

My point is that happiness comes from you. You can make yourself the happiest or the saddest person on earth. The simple things count, sometimes even more than the huge things. Don’t let people decide how you would cheer yourself. Free yourself from people’s tongues. And enjoy being silly and happy though, you deserve it, you even need it sometimes 😉 :D.

Always welcomed to the corner,\

Menna Xx

Take care: False alarm

Yes, what you read up there is right. You are getting a false alarm. That alarm is your feelings, your wrong ones.

Not because someone says a word or two nice then that person is falling in love with you now, or because someone is shouting at your face means that they hate you. Wrong guesses and especially in feelings, can lead to disasters endings. Early judging can be one of the reasons that might not lead you to happy endings. In my point of view I guess people are like chameleons. We change our colors according to the situation to protect ourselves. Therefore, I believe that first impressions can be false 99% of the time. Therefore, keep the alarm activated for false feelings that you might develop.

However, we might feel the wrong way not only on first meetings, or people might not color themselves for protection. They might not protect themselves but maybe others, the people they love and care about. Also in that case activate your alarm, because at that specific moment they would be needing you the most. You might even lose them if you believed, because it’s the test. It’s the test to see if you care for each other or not.

Third type of false feelings alarms are those alarms that we get as a reflex of our original feelings. As for being angry instead of sad. That kinds of feelings can burn everything to the ground. Make you lose everything. It’s like as if you go onto a feelings coma that when you wake up from it, you will find that with your bare hands you turned everything to just  shattered memories that even if you try to fix, it would be too late. You would be praying for a miracle to get your life to what was it before everything. You would be wishing to go back with time and stop yourself before being an idiot and destroy everything.

After all, we are humans. We would prefer our happiness and joy more than anything that we might turn that alarm off by our own will. We would want us to still feel these feelings even when we know it’s am lie. We would want to smile and feel happy a few more times, before we wake up. Before the dream turns into a nightmare. That might be one of the hardest choices you might make in your life. If you are gonna make it, just please think of what will happen when you wake up first. Know that you can’t stay sleeping forever.

Lastly, how could you overcome your wrong feelings?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

What are you hiding?

If you have read any of my previous blogs you will find that I most of time believe that there is no black only or white only in life, I believe it’s the same for the human being.

It doesn’t matter if you are clear that you are strong and you feel that strength, there is a little bit of weakness in you. It doesn’t matter if you are the happiest person on earth, there is a side of darkness or sadness in you and vice versa. That’s right, we are not what we want to show. The truth mostly is the opposite. We keep the true side of us hidden most of the time, some people think it’s because it shows weakness of someone and make them easy to be broken by others. However, I think that if we showed the real us that might relax us from the acting or pretending all the time. We will simply be us.

How many times have you read someone wrongly? Like you thought they are really weak and they turned out to be really string or powerful? As I always say, people can’t be read, because knowing someone intentions only works when it’s measured and calculated like in businesses, you can’t know if someone hate or love somebody unless they show it. What if they showed all the love? Then here you go! You read him/her wrongly.

 

When people say that she/he has a lot of faces that doesn’t mean that they are fake for example, well they might be but sometimes it’s meant to protect themselves rather than cheating on people or deceiving them.

My point here is that if you love or hate something or someone show that love or hate before it’s too late. Life is only lived ones, so stop caring about what it looks like and start taking off the mask. At least with your family, friends and beloved ones. If you are meant to be hurt you will be and that’s okay, that’s actually how we learn to protect ourselves.

 

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

 

Can you guess what’s inside the box?

So far, I’ve met a lot of people who would go with “Uhu, I understand you.” Or that moment when your mum, dad or someone near to you says “No one can understands you like I do” and things like that. Well, let them think what they think, after all even yourself can understand you.

We do a lot of actions that we don’t really understand, do we? It can be from our body reaction or a moment of anger, sadness or happiness. It happens with me a lot times myself. my point here is that you really don’t know the real you. Only the lucky ones of us who understand themselves by 90% for example, not to mention other people. Understanding somebody is really complicated, well unless you are a mind reader. Even then you might understand how their mind works but what about their heart.

In my point of view, emotions are something that no one can ever feel or understand about the other. Like if your best friend is really sad about something, you will know they are upset or sad but how much blue they are. That’s really impossible. You can’t get into somebody’s heart or soul and read it like a book. We all diverse in our minds, hearts and souls. Therefore, even if two really close people are happy about something or sad about it, they might both be experiencing the same emotion but not the same feeling.

However, understanding each other as much as it might be tricky, it can help sometimes. As an example, when people know each other’s music tastes, personalities, favorite colors or even horoscopes. Well those are tools that can get you a little bit about other people but they are not telling you what’s on his mind or heart. So, don’t judge so soon or even never judge at all. We are humans and we are ,in my opinion, a huge world of complication. Simplicity for us is in peace and love most of time, but can you tell when was the last time you felt that? Well, even if you did, I won’t actually really feel it. But that doesn’t mean I won’t acknowledge it 😉 😀

The idea here is that you can’t know what’s inside the box without actually opening it and you can’t open someone’s heart, soul or mind. However, you can shake the box and guess what’s in it 🙂

Have you ever guessed what’s  inside the box correct 😉 :D?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Are you a miracle?

People say that miracles ages are gone. Believe it or not, there are still a lot of miracles around us. We just don’t them.

You are a miracle yourself. Think of how many hard or unbelievable situations you have been into and survived them. Think of who you are. Your presence itself is a miracle, isn’t it? It doesn’t matter how you think of yourself as a simple human being, there is something unique in you that no one has. Think of yourself as if you are a stranger. As if you are your enemy and lover. Your enemy sees you strong, unbreakable and that’s why you have an enemy. Your lover think that you are one time thing that hardly exits. As you are his/her one unique expensive one, maybe even more expensive and worthy than a diamond.

Think of what you’ve done to people up till now. Like whatever your job is, it off course might have changed at least a small part of someone’s life. We are like gears in a clock. We move together to keep each other moving in the right movement. We are all connected to each other in a way that only the nature can connect us by. Imagine your life in as many scenarios as you can. You will find that in each scenario or story or a choice you might have made different would have made a different result. Isn’t this a miracle itself? Therefore, although we might have different opinions about this but I believe that nothing is a coincidence. Even if it’s not a result of our choices, it’s our fates.

Miracles are everywhere, in you or around you. It only needs to believe in them or at least search them to see them. They are not rare as people see them, they are every where that because of it being naturally around us, people forgot about them. They no longer see them, but once they are no longer there people will see them. That’s why only see the big miracles like miracles, while the truth is that these are not only miracles. They are extra ordinaries that might even be above miracles. Because in my point of view, miracles are so ordinary but because they’ve always been there as I said, we just can no longer notice them.

I have been thinking about that for a moment now until I decided to write about. Just believe that if you believe in yourself, believe in miracles. Believe that you are unique. Just appreciate your uniqueness. 🙂

What is the best miracle around you? 😀

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

 

Different stories

One of the things that I sometimes think of is what kind of people or stories is out there in the world. Believe me, I can stay for an hour or maybe more just going from conclusions to reasons and from one person’s story or life to another. It’s really weird but that’s how sometimes waiting for time to pass can look like 😀

Anyway, I won’t lie to you. The reason I am writing this blog is somehow might be silly :D. As this summer, especially lately, I started watching LOADS of TV shows, movie and stuff like that. You might even notice from previous blogs this summer. Look, I am not that type of person who would enjoy sitting around doing nothing and as sometimes I have no other choice other than that, being engaged in other stories doesn’t sound bad to me D. So I started to watch SO many TV shows. Well, I am not addicted yet, maybe a little obsessed with the stories I see.

I love thinking of how might a story go if a different route was taken. It might be freaky but somehow it helps me to think of the possibilities and choice I might have if I got into a similar situation or even to help me understand how might people act according to their different stories. Let me make this clearer. When I hear a story of a person or watch a TV show I learn what kind of situation he or she might be at and how they will act. That way it helps me that when for example I ask something from my colleague and they show some type of a tense reaction for no reason, then something not good must’ve happened. I start to put scenarios and I don’t push my request that I might even search for a way to help if I can. It’s weird and believe me, doing this sometimes, puts me in weird situations with people, because off course no one now do anything for free. Unfortunately, the world changed so much to let free favors take place.

Just my point is that, We all have different stories, different cast too. You might be supported by your families, friends while others don’t. Always think of the people around you as of different versions and expect anything. a year or two before I would have advised you to think of the good intentions first with everyone. well, today I won’t, Today, I would tell you watch your back. The good intentions might only exits with your family or people you think might care just not to lose them or fight over non trust and stuff like that, but always be careful. Watch. your. back!

Remember that your story is different from their’s.

What was the wierdst story you heard or saw and thought about for so long?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

We are messy like a 100 pieces of puzzle

Who am I? I ask myself this question every night. Every night I find a different answer for it. Some days I am the happiest under the moon, some other times I am the bluest. Sometimes I so ambitious and hopeful about the morning and some other days  I am so hopeless that I feel it’s the end of the world and I might never wake up tomorrow.

Everyday makes me discover new things about people, the world. We are so weird, do you know that? But astonishingly, beautifully weird and that’s what makes us unique and our world somehow the right place to live at. I learn new stuff about people’s type every second. I find out that whatever I’ve knows and learned so far is never enough. There’s a quote that say:

” Without the change in tastes, the goods would’ve been ruined”

Therefore, it’s our good luck that we are different! Although, I know what you might be thinking about now, which is that life might have been so easier if we were all have the same personalities or minds. Okay, you might be right but think of living in a world where all the people are you. It can be so easier, that’s true but not forever. Even ourselves change. Like are you the same person you were a year ago, not even 10 years? We change every day, although we stay the same person at the end. Like a good person might get worse but will always return to it’s good origin. If there’s a small amount of kindness and goodness in someone, it will always show up. Changing also have measures. Like you can change a little bit over night. A person can never naturally change from batman to the joker over night :D. My point is that a person can’t be so bad over night. They might be angrier than usual so they would make an unacceptable thing but at the end they are not that bad after all.

Also remember that people are different, but there that good person who might be good just like you. So never give up on finding you match of friends or your other half. Don’t also keep that thought of that what you are doing is silly or people might not like it. If you thing it’s worth it then there is someone else somewhere also thinks the same ;). As for myself, I think of that every time i send a message or do something or even writing a blog :D. But every time I feel that thing inside me that I am happy that I am writing this so I am sure someone else might be happy to read it to :D.

After all. we are all like pieces of puzzle that always take time to be solved. Just needs time 🙂 and that comes when you get to know that person better every day. Also don’t get so shocked and except anything, might happens of changes. We are all humans, and if you changed from yesterday to today then others can.

Life is full of surprises 😉 🙂

What was the hugest change that happened to you :D?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx