The wonder of human nature

Do you ever like just sit like that observing people or pass a situation that makes you think of people, or actually human nature and start thinking “Wow! Humans are weird!”

That’s practically me everyday. I wonder especially about how people’s minds and feelings work. Like the difference between people with pretty short temper and others with such patience. How people can get so moody and some with the same mood and technically the same face. Like even if you shot them they would nearly die with the same look on their face :D. It’s really weird how human beings can be so different and still can be friends, lovers and families. I am sure that the human nature or psychology to be specific is such a miracle and has dozens of varieties.

Don’t even let me start at how people’s mind work, especially in relationships. Like you will find that person whose mind can compute millions and millions of lies in a second to just get them from a fight with their partner, and on the other hand you will find that person who can’t even lie to their boss so they can keep their job that pays their rent. There are also those who can build a bunch of theories to impossible scenarios that it’s possibility of happening is as small as the possibility of the presence of aliens.

At the end of the day, it’s human nature. The only thing that non can expert because believe it or not but it will keep shocking you everyday. If you want to really do something more enjoyably than watching a movie or a TV show, watch people! I do that actually 😀 When I have nothing to do, and tired of people who are around me, I start playing music, and think of people I met today. How where they, were they happy, sad, how did they act for such simple things. Or even grab a cup of coffee or ice cream in the hot and grab a chair away from people and start watching them. That might seem actually weird, I know, but you will find people amazing you with every single action or expression. 😉 😀

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

 

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Dear diary, can you hear me?

About a couple of months ago I started writing my diary, not in daily based though. And I found out that, even the diary would get annoyed by my life.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I am not grateful or so. It’s just that it’s weird when you see that someone you’ve been writing about a month ago as your friend, when you mention his/her name today, he is no longer one. It’s weird that when just a couple of days ago you were talking about studying or watching tv shows or going out and today you are writing that your finals is after tomorrow. Time flies! That’s one of the few quotes that I totally believe, and it doesn’t matter if that time is happy or sad anymore. Both ways it will pass by the blink of eye.

It’s like even my diary can’t even keep up with me from my speed or actually that most of the days look like each other. What I did today, I’ve done yesterday and will do tomorrow. I am not a celeb or a royal or even a fictional character to have a new exciting adventure to write about. Even my high school years passed way less daramatic than how you see in movies (by the way! Grateful for that! :D).

It’s just life! Or at least life for normal people like you and me and sometimes for celebs and royals too! 😀

But at the end of the day, my diary is still there to know my best, worst and super boring days, unlike many of my friends, or who I thought were my friends. Thanks to it and to you too, because my blogs kind of about my days too ;).

Always welcomes to the corner,

Menna Xx

 

 

Can someone stop feeling from the inside?

Lately, I’ve been focusing on many things such as university, career, college. In other words, my future that I am getting to forget what makes me happy or sad or make people around me.

I don’t go to school lately, for enjoying as before you know. Like for meeting my friends for example, even when I meet them outside. At the beginning when I decide to hang out with them I change my mind about it hundredth of times, I get the feeling of tiredness and laziness like “do I really have to go?” But then when I go I enjoy so much that when I come back home I say “Thank god I did go out and didn’t listen to myself.” Same with everything that I know as just a knowledge that I enjoy and make me happy but do I feel it? Nope, maybe when it’s too late.

Same with things that should make me upset but they no longer do. For example, I am a happy person like I don’t like fighting with people who live with me or an important part of my life, like my family, and feel annoyed when they fight with each other. They just bring negative energy or sad atmosphere. However, now I feel like I no longer care. Wither they fight or not, it doesn’t matter. IT might be growing up, or just turning to be numb, or maybe both. Maybe when we grow up we become numb, we lose those feelings of extreme anger, fear or happiness.  Because at the end of the day we know that things might get worse and we do expect the worse, or maybe because we believe that better things might happen in a moment we don’t expect.

We all have our believes and lies that we believe to keep us from falling apart. We all have dreams and goals that we are looking forward to. They are the only reason that we wake up everyday for and I hope that we all never stop having dreams or goals, good ones :D.

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

 

Where is the pause button, please?

How many of you got exposed to embarrassing situations that keeps playing over and over again in your mind? I really hate my brain for doing that! The worst part is that my brain fail me in remembering my keys but not those situations.

At that very moment I wish my brain was some kind of a stereo or mp3 player or a DVD just so I can have the ability to have the pause button. To just stop my mind from replying the same scene, the same words and looks over and over again. I wish I could control m brain as in fact my brain is the one in charge. I can’t control my memories, what to show and what to just keep at the very back of my box of memories. Not even deleted because the truth is that as much as those memories sometimes torture me, they keep me alerted and teach me more than one lesson. Although they might be actually hard ones.

I have been exposed to loads of unbearable embarrassing situations that with everyone I came to be in another level. For example, by time I no longer cry of shame, I learnt how to fake the perfect smile and master the most perfect lie to convince people that I might even be made of titanium. It doesn’t matter how bad things can go, I try my best not to crack even to my nearest people. However, it gets so tiring and even more torturing not to open up to someone. Someone who might understand you, feel your agony. If you have that person, just hold tight as much as you can because you two are the only reason that you two are still fighting in this life.

I guess that blog is going to be a little bit short. Despite my pounding headache, I was exposed to one of those embarrassing situations lately and it’s memory keeps flashing back in my head that makes it worse. So I just went on writing this blog, I know somewhere out there is experiencing the same thing. Therefore, I am here to tell you that you are not alone and that you are tougher than what you think and people forget so do you. Just learn from this, rather than being lost in this dilemma of blame and hiding. Maybe your luck is better than mine in finding the pause button 😉

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

It’s all a wave

How many times we have planned and thought about the future when things went into the other direction? When we lose hope, but happiness comes knocking on our doors or sadness come blinding us with it’s darkness in the time that we thoughts we we will never shed a tear.

C’est la vie! It takes you to a different place everyday. sometimes it can make you out of your mind like, what on earth am I doing here? Or wake up one morning and you are no longer having the same surname or even worse, you don’t have a name at all. However, after all we still wake up every morning with some hope in our hearts even if we can’ feel it. It’s there. We are weird creatures, you know? We are unbreakable! Even in our hardest times we don’t give up easily, Why? Because unlike other species we hate it. We even love ourselves more sometimes to let it lose to the world or to others. We all selfish. Yes, it’s like a component in us. But obviously, the amount of selfishness differs from on to another, but the end of the day we love ourselves.

Although life can put us in hard or happy situations, we know that it won’t last long. Like when you laugh so hard and then feel a pain in your chest as you know that tomorrow you might cry as much as you are laughing now. It’s all about time. When will things change. That’s what keeps us hold and strong. Not all of us sometimes, but at least we stay as much as we can, we enjoy s much as we can, we fight as much as we can. Eventually, we all get tired at some point. The lucky between us are the ones who find where to charge their energy from. The charger can be a person you love, a friend, a lover or sometimes a song or a memory. If you know what is your charger you lucky enough to be warrior in this life.

After all, what’s important of them all is to keep the idea in your mind and heart, that it’s all a wave. It will come and go. Therefore, you don’t have to depend o it so much as if you depended that something isn’t going to change and leaned to the wall of confidence that everything will stay as it’s, one day you might fall really bad. Facts are just facts for sometime. Remember that the word ‘Forever’ is the biggest lie ever. So, simply know that you are and going to laugh or cry all the way.

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

The science of people’s types

I know that I have talked about people’s type in other blogs, but here I mean the literal meaning of people’s type. Life is like a big garden and people are the roses and plants in it. We are really different and similar at the same time.

For example, there are the sad people who might even regret the day they were born. That type is the type that mostly end up alone or failure. There is the other type opposite to it, the happy one. The one that always try their best to make the best laugh out of any situation, or they are overjoyed to even shed a tear. Those are the main two types of people. There is also the energetic one. That one that even if they are kidnapped and tied to a chair, they won’t stop talking or moving anyway. Those are mostly related to the happy, overjoyed category. There is also the one that lost hope so long ago, the one always believe that whatever they do no point of it. They are living just for the meaning of it, just living. Off course that’s related to the sad one. Obviously, there is the opposite of each type. Like there is the lazy person, the hopeful one and so on. And many many other types, that if you noticed people you will find that they are even infinite. Countless that you may lose count of it.

However, people change. We have our seasons too like roses. We are like nature, we can be so calm a moment but a storm the other moment. We are part of the nature therefore, we are like it. A person can be sad, known to be sad but when they get happy, it can be the best smile you can see on their face. A person can be calm or happy, but when they get made, it’s the worse ever. Just like shells that has pearls, they might look a like from outside or even the same most of the time, but when they reveal the rareness in them that can be the surprise that you never expected. Just take care, because not all surprises are awesome.

Always know that this mix is what keeps us going. What makes from us friends, families and lovers. What keeps us stronger 😉

What is the most type of people that amuse you :D?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

You don’t have to master it to do it

How many of us love singing, dancing, drawing well but actually can’t do any of these good enough? At the end of the day, you love them then do them! You don’t have to be an expert to enjoy your heart.

I love singing, writing and drawing. In general. Well, I am not a really good singer, but I do sing when I can or able to. I am writing now as you can see (I am even writing my very own first novel now) and I draw when I feel the urge to.  Loads and loads of things and people tried to stop me from doing these things. These little things makes me feel happy when I am blue. Many people might see it silly or because it’s unprofessional, then it’s a waste of time. And first of these people is even my mother. However, I still do it. I may not be perfect but who is?! I just enjoy it!

Practicing makes you perfect. Therefore, maybe your drawing this time doesn’t look like it’s related to a human being by any chance, but maybe the next one it would be a better portrait 😉 As long as hope and the fire of determination is in your heart, then you can go places. How many people said I can’t and they are now Nobel Prize winners, public figures and more. Even if you didn’t get to be any of those, you at least feel happiness when you hold you pen to write, the mic to sing or the guitar to play. Remember how happy were you when you were child, it was when you had no chains, the chains of the society. Like when you are in a party and you don’t want to dance so you don’t have to look funny or be an embarrassment. That might be true, yeah well no one would like to embarrassed but that doesn’t mean you can’t dance at all. Be yourself, at least with yourself.

My point is that happiness comes from you. You can make yourself the happiest or the saddest person on earth. The simple things count, sometimes even more than the huge things. Don’t let people decide how you would cheer yourself. Free yourself from people’s tongues. And enjoy being silly and happy though, you deserve it, you even need it sometimes 😉 :D.

Always welcomed to the corner,\

Menna Xx

Take care: False alarm

Yes, what you read up there is right. You are getting a false alarm. That alarm is your feelings, your wrong ones.

Not because someone says a word or two nice then that person is falling in love with you now, or because someone is shouting at your face means that they hate you. Wrong guesses and especially in feelings, can lead to disasters endings. Early judging can be one of the reasons that might not lead you to happy endings. In my point of view I guess people are like chameleons. We change our colors according to the situation to protect ourselves. Therefore, I believe that first impressions can be false 99% of the time. Therefore, keep the alarm activated for false feelings that you might develop.

However, we might feel the wrong way not only on first meetings, or people might not color themselves for protection. They might not protect themselves but maybe others, the people they love and care about. Also in that case activate your alarm, because at that specific moment they would be needing you the most. You might even lose them if you believed, because it’s the test. It’s the test to see if you care for each other or not.

Third type of false feelings alarms are those alarms that we get as a reflex of our original feelings. As for being angry instead of sad. That kinds of feelings can burn everything to the ground. Make you lose everything. It’s like as if you go onto a feelings coma that when you wake up from it, you will find that with your bare hands you turned everything to just  shattered memories that even if you try to fix, it would be too late. You would be praying for a miracle to get your life to what was it before everything. You would be wishing to go back with time and stop yourself before being an idiot and destroy everything.

After all, we are humans. We would prefer our happiness and joy more than anything that we might turn that alarm off by our own will. We would want us to still feel these feelings even when we know it’s am lie. We would want to smile and feel happy a few more times, before we wake up. Before the dream turns into a nightmare. That might be one of the hardest choices you might make in your life. If you are gonna make it, just please think of what will happen when you wake up first. Know that you can’t stay sleeping forever.

Lastly, how could you overcome your wrong feelings?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

What are you hiding?

If you have read any of my previous blogs you will find that I most of time believe that there is no black only or white only in life, I believe it’s the same for the human being.

It doesn’t matter if you are clear that you are strong and you feel that strength, there is a little bit of weakness in you. It doesn’t matter if you are the happiest person on earth, there is a side of darkness or sadness in you and vice versa. That’s right, we are not what we want to show. The truth mostly is the opposite. We keep the true side of us hidden most of the time, some people think it’s because it shows weakness of someone and make them easy to be broken by others. However, I think that if we showed the real us that might relax us from the acting or pretending all the time. We will simply be us.

How many times have you read someone wrongly? Like you thought they are really weak and they turned out to be really string or powerful? As I always say, people can’t be read, because knowing someone intentions only works when it’s measured and calculated like in businesses, you can’t know if someone hate or love somebody unless they show it. What if they showed all the love? Then here you go! You read him/her wrongly.

 

When people say that she/he has a lot of faces that doesn’t mean that they are fake for example, well they might be but sometimes it’s meant to protect themselves rather than cheating on people or deceiving them.

My point here is that if you love or hate something or someone show that love or hate before it’s too late. Life is only lived ones, so stop caring about what it looks like and start taking off the mask. At least with your family, friends and beloved ones. If you are meant to be hurt you will be and that’s okay, that’s actually how we learn to protect ourselves.

 

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

 

Can you guess what’s inside the box?

So far, I’ve met a lot of people who would go with “Uhu, I understand you.” Or that moment when your mum, dad or someone near to you says “No one can understands you like I do” and things like that. Well, let them think what they think, after all even yourself can understand you.

We do a lot of actions that we don’t really understand, do we? It can be from our body reaction or a moment of anger, sadness or happiness. It happens with me a lot times myself. my point here is that you really don’t know the real you. Only the lucky ones of us who understand themselves by 90% for example, not to mention other people. Understanding somebody is really complicated, well unless you are a mind reader. Even then you might understand how their mind works but what about their heart.

In my point of view, emotions are something that no one can ever feel or understand about the other. Like if your best friend is really sad about something, you will know they are upset or sad but how much blue they are. That’s really impossible. You can’t get into somebody’s heart or soul and read it like a book. We all diverse in our minds, hearts and souls. Therefore, even if two really close people are happy about something or sad about it, they might both be experiencing the same emotion but not the same feeling.

However, understanding each other as much as it might be tricky, it can help sometimes. As an example, when people know each other’s music tastes, personalities, favorite colors or even horoscopes. Well those are tools that can get you a little bit about other people but they are not telling you what’s on his mind or heart. So, don’t judge so soon or even never judge at all. We are humans and we are ,in my opinion, a huge world of complication. Simplicity for us is in peace and love most of time, but can you tell when was the last time you felt that? Well, even if you did, I won’t actually really feel it. But that doesn’t mean I won’t acknowledge it 😉 😀

The idea here is that you can’t know what’s inside the box without actually opening it and you can’t open someone’s heart, soul or mind. However, you can shake the box and guess what’s in it 🙂

Have you ever guessed what’s  inside the box correct 😉 :D?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx