Will it change by the dawn?

Have you ever kept thinking about something your whole life until suddenly you feel everything no longer make sense as it used to be? Then start asking yourself, when did everything reach that point?

I ask myself that question a lot these days. I am a senior year student this year. Normally that’s the time where you start about who you want to be, what you want. All my life I’ve had that one specific plan or idea of how my life is going to turn out to be. I was so lucky to find out what I want to be since so long, unlike some of my friends. I knew what I want to do at college and university from day on. I knew what type of a woman I wanted to be. I was so blessed with this. I knew how my life would turn out to be. I was that lucky until things around me started to make no more sense as they used to be. Until I found out that the type of woman I want to be is no longer that type who sits around thinking of white dressed or how the wedding would be, unlike most girls.

I found out that i want to be that kind of woman whose name is a trademark, Whose name itself makes from her a warrior. Even then, I knew that I want to be a business woman, which was great! Like I knew that I would be studying business studies and economics and so on. I was lucky that since I made the decision I haven’t changed my mind a bit, until the world actually started to change. Β Now I am thinking of surviving before making my dreams come true. People around me say that I can’t do what I am thinking of and that I am crazy. Even the idea of me learning new skills or languages, my family sees them as a waste of time because at the end of the day whatever i am dreaming of happening will never happen.

Moreover, i am still looked at as a woman. A female who is at the end of the day is going to get married and stay home. The idea that one day I might find my other half is there but after my dreams come true or at least when I find that right other half, not just because the society or my family needs to see me married or a mother. If you are reading this I would love to ask one thing from you. Whoever you are, a father, a mother, a friend or a teacher. Please, never let whoever have a dream to let it go. Because one day, if you let everyone let go of their dreams or the passion of becoming something. the day no one have dreams, is the day when the world is literally over. The day when everything goes and ends. Never force anyone to be what they don’t want to be, please support them and off course give them your advice. Make them happy and strong. Happiness and strength are the keys to the success and better world. And you too when you go after your dream don’t give up easily and take responsibility of your actions, remember it was your choice in the first place. The truth is that we, human beings, don’t learn our lesson until we actually fall and get up again.

Don’t worry if things changed by the dawn or if things no longer make sense. You are still there and as things weren’t making sense in the past, they will again πŸ™‚

Sorry if that was a long one πŸ˜€ I just hope that I proved my point πŸ™‚

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

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Are you still waiting for a reply?

With the technology developing and one of the main ways of communication are chatting apps. I’ve been reading a lot of memes and posts about messaging. Like how annoying is it when you message someone and checking your phone every second for a reply, but hopelessly, nothing. Sometimes they might have actually read it, but still the last message on the screen is yours.

Normally, I always expect the good will, like they might not have been able to reply yet or something bad might have happened and I actually start to worry. That’s how you can keep your mind away from all the negative ideas that revolves in your mind. After all, if you were in that person’s shoes you might be thinking the same. Away from the idea of good will and so on also the idea of keeping the good relations with people. Always think of how your friendship or relationship with that person might end up if you accused him or her of some bad will and you actually turned up to be wrong. Always think of the consequences. So don;t worry, it’s not always your boyfriend or girlfriend is cheating on you or that your best friend is ignoring you. Relax and think it well and carefully through. Because it doesn’t matter how many times you might explain yourself later. Whatever it’s said is out there. You can’t take it back.

On the other hand, don’t always expect that people are all angels. We are all 2-halves. Yin and Yang. Black and white. We all have an angel and a devil sides inside us. Therefore, the idea of how far are you going with the good will thing depends on the person. Like not because he told you that he or she loves you deeply then off course they are not cheating on you. Remember his or her history. Didn’t they cheat on their ex ,for example, with you? Sorry for the example by the way, just the nearest that came to my mind. My point here is that bring blindly trusting is a relaxing thing that you won’t have to imagine dozens of scenarios, but also keep an eye.

One more advice that I really, really would love you taking it in consideration. Don’t make any of it a big deal. Even if you see yourself true 100%. No one is 100% true, we obviously see ourselves that because if we don’t trust ourselves who we will. It’s human nature. Don’t go on fire and burn everything down in a moment of anger, because one day you will look back at the ashes and regret it so much. Whenever things gets south, always try to end the conversation before it becomes that type of conversation Β that you would curse yourself for ever allowing it and losing the people you love or destroying your beautiful dream with your bare hands. Stop it and leave the place immediately. Think of it wisely, and only include the judgments of the people you know who care about you and can by any chance trust their judgment. Never ever get in the way people who might benefit of that misunderstanding or might lead you to a misery. Also remember that forgiveness can happen, especially if it means not losing someone you love, care about or trust. They so rare to find, so keep them in your life as long as you can.

Don’t lose them over a text πŸ˜‰

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Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

 

It’s nothing like what you think

We human beings have that habit of thinking that we are the only right ones. Just to get this straight, no one is 100% true. That’s perfection and perfection with all the theories and perspectives can’t exist.

It’s like if someone says that they know you so well and judge even before making sure of their ideas. We are not all what we seem or look like. We all lead different lives and have different personalities. Like not because that person is stupid then he or she can’t do anything in there lives. They can even be more successful than a smart one who thinks that no one deserves his or her smartness. Somehow there is that theory that if a person is wearing expensive clothes or brands then they might get people to trust him. I don’t know why but I think that I have read this somewhere before. Anyway, my idea is that not because of how people look or talk then it shows the really them.

You know! Sometimes when I think or get asked of what supernatural power I would wish to have, I would be thinking of the power of reading people’s brain. Understanding people is hard and if you ever underestimated someone it can cause embarrassment or even danger. Therefore, it doesn’t matter how a person look, talk or show how loyal and trust worthy he or she is. It’s not always as it seems. It’s also annoying sometimes when that happens to you. Like if someone thought of you as a stupid or thought of you as something you would actually hate to even think of it. Other times it can be useful actually.

The human being thoughts can be so different and variant. However, there are some thoughts that we all mostly agree to like fear of death or searching for a person to love or trust. We might not show this or agree to it, but we all have those thoughts anyway. So if someone told you that they don’t care if they died, well they do. It’s something in us nit by our hands. Like if you got that person into the water and they can’t swim they will try their best to survive.Even if it’s not his own who tries to survive, it’s his body.

We all have something to hide, weakness point or some beautiful emotion that we hide so no one can get access to you or break you through it. It’s a fact, the question is why? Why can’t people stop thinking on how to protect and trust? I know the answer as you do but I still can’t keep the thought away. The thought that whatever is around us is not what it’s actually is. It’s a mask that hides a lot behind it. Just because lies and looks can work better than truth.

Somehow that blog might not make sense but at the moment my mind is like a messy room with a lot of thoughts about that topic and as always I don’t think i am the only one πŸ™‚ πŸ˜€

What are your thoughts??

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

World of imagination

Have you ever wished that ones you close your eyes and open them again you find yourself somewhere else? Some other place that is better reality but as real as it?

Here’s The Solution!

It’s not some kind of spell, but it works let’s say 99% of the time.

Way #1 (the most efficient and easiest way, at least for me :D):

MUSIC. One word, 5 letters of magic. Ones I get into a situation that was so exhausting and it’s not over yet. I play music, I have the play list that includes all my favorite songs, but I have other playlists for reading, relaxing, working out or even meditation! They act like my painkillers actually πŸ˜€ Like after a long day or before I sleep or at the car, plane,train,bus. Sometimes it’s when I want to escape but in my place. That’s getting weird, isn’t it? Okay let me explain. Like now while writing this blog. I am sitting with my parents, they are watching the TV and I want to focus on my writing so I am playing jazz, with 88% volume in my headphones. Or play music and imagine what I would love to be doing right now instead of being here. Although I actually still keep an eye to the surroundings so I don’t look like a fool when I get called πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜€

Way #2

BOOKS, MOVIES, TV SHOWS. Those ones preferable to be at the night while everyone thinks you are either asleep or simply no one is there, so you can enjoy your world of imagination, also so you have nothing else to do and wake up to the real world of troubles :D. It’s usually better if you had some background soft music while reading or watch your movie or tv show with headphones or with volume that blocks the world for at least a moment and also try to keep checking the medium like ( god forbidden) maybe a thief is breaking into your house while you just there enjoying πŸ˜€

(Those ways I guess most of us do, but just take care always of the surroundings around you while playing the music or so on. God forbidden, if something happened you can notice and take action πŸ™‚)

Way #3

LEAVE HOME SWEET HOME. Well, if you can :D. Like most of the time I can’t leave the house because of transportation troubles or so on. But I try always to go out if I can and I know that this hangout will please me and make me happy. Like if I know that this going out might just not help or make me more upset I just skip it. Well, I get judged that I am depressing and so on by my family because I don’t usually leave the house, but honestly I tried to explain myself zillions of times until I just got tired and gave up anyway. My point is, people’s judgment can’t always be accurate so it’s only you and people who knows the real truths who can somehow judge. Just don’t listen to the negative vibes so much :D. Go to the amusement park, the museum the cinema. Those places which have a story to tell or make you live their story πŸ˜‰ :D.

Those are my main 3 ways anyway πŸ˜€ I have more but believe me that might take blogs and pages :D.

If you want more ways though, just let me know in the comment πŸ˜‰ :D.

If you also have ways comment them below for others to know πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜€

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Different stories

One of the things that I sometimes think of is what kind of people or stories is out there in the world. Believe me, I can stay for an hour or maybe more just going from conclusions to reasons and from one person’s story or life to another. It’s really weird but that’s how sometimes waiting for time to pass can look like πŸ˜€

Anyway, I won’t lie to you. The reason I am writing this blog is somehow might be silly :D. As this summer, especially lately, I started watching LOADS of TV shows, movie and stuff like that. You might even notice from previous blogs this summer. Look, I am not that type of person who would enjoy sitting around doing nothing and as sometimes I have no other choice other than that, being engaged in other stories doesn’t sound bad to me D. So I started to watch SO many TV shows. Well, I am not addicted yet, maybe a little obsessed with the stories I see.

I love thinking of how might a story go if a different route was taken. It might be freaky but somehow it helps me to think of the possibilities and choice I might have if I got into a similar situation or even to help me understand how might people act according to their different stories. Let me make this clearer. When I hear a story of a person or watch a TV show I learn what kind of situation he or she might be at and how they will act. That way it helps me that when for example I ask something from my colleague and they show some type of a tense reaction for no reason, then something not good must’ve happened. I start to put scenarios and I don’t push my request that I might even search for a way to help if I can. It’s weird and believe me, doing this sometimes, puts me in weird situations with people, because off course no one now do anything for free. Unfortunately, the world changed so much to let free favors take place.

Just my point is that, We all have different stories, different cast too. You might be supported by your families, friends while others don’t. Always think of the people around you as of different versions and expect anything. a year or two before I would have advised you to think of the good intentions first with everyone. well, today I won’t, Today, I would tell you watch your back. The good intentions might only exits with your family or people you think might care just not to lose them or fight over non trust and stuff like that, but always be careful. Watch. your. back!

Remember that your story is different from their’s.

What was the wierdst story you heard or saw and thought about for so long?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

We are messy like a 100 pieces of puzzle

Who am I? I ask myself this question every night. Every night I find a different answer for it. Some days I am the happiest under the moon, some other times I am the bluest. Sometimes I so ambitious and hopeful about the morning and some other days Β I am so hopeless that I feel it’s the end of the world and I might never wake up tomorrow.

Everyday makes me discover new things about people, the world. We are so weird, do you know that? But astonishingly, beautifully weird and that’s what makes us unique and our world somehow the right place to live at. I learn new stuff about people’s type every second. I find out that whatever I’ve knows and learned so far is never enough. There’s a quote that say:

” Without the change in tastes, the goods would’ve been ruined”

Therefore, it’s our good luck that we are different! Although, I know what you might be thinking about now, which is that life might have been so easier if we were all have the same personalities or minds. Okay, you might be right but think of living in a world where all the people are you. It can be so easier, that’s true but not forever. Even ourselves change. Like are you the same person you were a year ago, not even 10 years? We change every day, although we stay the same person at the end. Like a good person might get worse but will always return to it’s good origin. If there’s a small amount of kindness and goodness in someone, it will always show up. Changing also have measures. Like you can change a little bit over night. A person can never naturally change from batman to the joker over night :D. My point is that a person can’t be so bad over night. They might be angrier than usual so they would make an unacceptable thing but at the end they are not that bad after all.

Also remember that people are different, but there that good person who might be good just like you. So never give up on finding you match of friends or your other half. Don’t also keep that thought of that what you are doing is silly or people might not like it. If you thing it’s worth it then there is someone else somewhere also thinks the same ;). As for myself, I think of that every time i send a message or do something or even writing a blog :D. But every time I feel that thing inside me that I am happy that I am writing this so I am sure someone else might be happy to read it to :D.

After all. we are all like pieces of puzzle that always take time to be solved. Just needs time πŸ™‚ and that comes when you get to know that person better every day. Also don’t get so shocked and except anything, might happens of changes. We are all humans, and if you changed from yesterday to today then others can.

Life is full of surprises πŸ˜‰ πŸ™‚

What was the hugest change that happened to you :D?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Dear mind, this one is for you..

In this blog I am going to write a letter to my mind.Β 

P.S. It’s not as stupid as you think (hopefully) πŸ˜€

Dear mind,

As all letters I should start by asking how are you. Although I actually know how are you. You are always busy and tired even if with the teeny tiniest stuff that goes around you. Therefore, I am begging you to have some rest because you don’t only make yourself tired but me, my body and soul.

Thanks for the caring though. You’ve always been there to keep me awake and ready all the time. You kept me safe most of the time by making me realize the danger I might be in or making me able to analyze the type of people that I am dealing with. But, don’t you think that it’s too much? You are right that life is hard and might be getting harder and more dangerous every second. That way I might be having no one left to trust, do you realize that? It’s hard to make all of it with only us. Right! Safety is important and thinking but there is a pale here who is called heart who also needs some freedom, you know that, right ?

Also, why do you work so much? Huh? I am so tired of worrying about everything, aren’t you? Like in this very moment I am thinking of a lot of things. For others, these things might be so silly, but not for me. You always tell me that I can keep up, that I can take more. It’s nothing compared to other’s concerns. You might be right, but it’s only your sound, do you realize that? Have you heard the rest of my body’s sounds? My soul? My heart?

Why do you keep lying to me? Why do you keep telling me that everything is going to be fine, give me the hope and then in a second steal it from me? Why do you keep me dreaming and flying when you know that in a moment I will fall hardly to the ground?

The questions are a lot. I know I will never get the answers. I just hope that one day, I might be able to see the dreams, reality. That’s not your sound this time. It’s my heart’s. It’s the faith and hope in it. It’s the sound the you face every time you remind me of the dark reality, of the world’s cruelty. The world is good, really. If you could picture the colored picture of it, then it should exist somewhere. Will you keep that piece of information please and keep reminding me of it?

I stopped for a moment now before this to think of what I write next and I found out that whatever can be wrote might take all the words in the world, but won’t be enough. Just remember one thing. Whatever happens, the worse is yet to come.

Yours,

Me

What would your letter to your mind would be?

( sorry if that seemed a little bit psycho, sometimes we have to admit some things to ourself to keep space for the coming next. Go on! Empty what’s in you too πŸ™‚ )

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

The dead stars are shining

May I ask you a question? Why did our world became full of lies? I mean why did we became easily deceived by the shining diamonds that covers the black heart and dead souls?

As I said in the title that most of the bright stars that we see at the night are really dead, but we still get amused by how shiny they are. In the past, they used to say believe what you see, not what you hear. Now, don’t even believe yourself sometimes, because even us lie on ourselves. Life became a BIG play with the same script of the past but different cast. The truth somehow became not trusted, because we started to believe the lies we say that we actually forgot the truth.

We have always been classified to classes. By money, status or power. The young and weak people are seen as useless, while they actually are the only ones who might be seeing the uncovered truth. My point is that not everything seem shiny or cracked looks like what is shows. So don’t believe what you see in your hands, take a step back and have a look on the bigger picture. Sometimes we get blinded of how we might be actually taken to a very dark place, but they fill our mind all the way about how bright and beautiful that place is, just to get us out of the way. Unfortunately, we no longer live in a peaceful, humanitarian place, with all the laws and rules to protect us from each other. Things for someone in my age seem so dark and hopeless. I am a high school student in her senior year who is supposed to be hopeful about her successful future, and I am! Really! But, sometimes I take a step back and look at the full picture and try my best to see the truth with no illusion and all I can see is darkness and destruction, maybe a little bit of light if I am lucky enough. Although all of that, somehow I find the hope in me. I feel that my fight is not here yet, although I keep fighting for my family, friends or even anyone I can. I feel like I might be tired now before even I start fighting for my own.

I feel like my faith in humanity is gone but I still try to lock what’s left inside from evaporating and fading in the air. It’s not right for someone in my age to face things like what’s in the news and the world around here everyday. When will us the youth and the people who though for years that what keeps them from their dream is their luck to have a chance? When will our faith in humanity be full again? I dream and keep the faith in hope for a better world that I might find when it’s the time for my fight. Day dreaming and overthinking, if not all the time, then most of it. I wish that one day life would become easier, cleaner and more true with no lies, no hiding.

After all, maybe the starts that I see at night are dead, but they still shine even after they are no longer there :).

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Love?

Well, that might be the first time to right about love, maybe even the first time to think of it as a real thing that exist in life. Just to be clear, it’s not because I am falling in love :D, let’s say just that it’s something that because of the fantasies that I read and watched about I nearly believed that it doesn’t actually exists. I jut want to post it because I feel that it might guide someone, who knows :D. After all it’s all my point of view that yours might be completely different, which is completely awesome πŸ˜‰ :D.

I’ve always thought of Love as weakness or a big lie and I still think the same actually but in a different way as I grew up. Love is weakness towards the person you love, it’s that you might have to give up everything for the person that stole your love out of you. That person stole your heart yes, but somehow, it seems so right that it’s hardly a theft. Love can be the biggest lie we might live if it’s only for entertainment, if we judged it before it even starts or made it ourselves. It can be a lie if it was more than love, if it was fantasy. Love has no questions or thoughts. Although I jus said that love is weakness but that weakness make you weak for your beloved ones but stronger than a hurricane and destructive, worse than a storm if it had anything wrong to do with your other half. That strength is weird enough, for me, I’ve never knew how powerful it is, but I am sure it’s stronger than the strongest thing on earth. The reason of it for me too is still unknown, maybe because you feel full that you have your other half.Β 

Real love is something different and weirdly nice, you will feel that one timeΒ  or twice if you are that lucky! Love is supposed to be the relaxation and simplicity, it’s supposed to show the best of you, the glory that is buried deeply in you. True that it sometimes deserves the fight, but it’s supposed to be flowing like water. It’s when you don’t have to hold a gun to keep it there or make plans to keep the person you love beside you.

From my point of view, the worst thing ever is the conspiracy that someone should be with us just because we love them, although they don’t feel the same, or be with someone who loves us but we don’t. The idea of love is that both sides, trust, respect and be passionate for each other. If it’s anything other than that, then good luck next time because that’s not love and you are just making things worse for you and the others.Β 

True love stories for me is nothing like what’s in novels or movies, although it’s a nice dream though that I would be happy to happen :D, but the ones that when two old grandparents sit there and tell. That’s true love , because love is trust and loyalty that might not happen at the start most of the times but if they passed everything together to that age and still smile when they look or touch to each other then who needs more than that! Someone to trust and be happy with and keep each other safe.

Love is not just a word and it doesn’t happen in just a night and after all, it’s all destinies that we never can change. You might actually fall in love with the last person you can expect to even look at their face, meet at the last place you can expect or even that person can be so close that you might be that shocked when you guys actually fall in love πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜€

The most important thing I want to say here is that never even mix up liking someone with loving. Because liking might happen everyday, but love is the rarest and doesn’t even happen to everyone.

It’s weird that I am even posting this because believe me, I’ve never thought about that topic or maybe thought yes, but for other people or just to think of it nothing more. Just take care of yourself, where is your heart taking you, because it might take you to dark places that you might regret visiting later and maybe never getting out of it. That’s my main goal of this after all. πŸ™‚

So! How did you fall in love πŸ˜‰ :D?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Productivity knows no strategy

In the past year, I’ve been told that I study a lot or that I spend a lot of time studying and that I am a nerdy- which wasn’t so true by the way :D. Well, Studying too much was true especially that in my country most students have private lessons out of school to help them in studying and scoring high marks. So even if it wasn’t myself studying alone I would be having a lesson anyway. Therefore, people started asking me how do I do it? Like what type of strategy I follow to keep me studying without being sick of the book, although I actually hardly sit focusing for so much time on learning some kind of information.

SO! First of all! I didn’t have any strategies or time tables expect those ones to remind me of my exam timings, or my lessons.Β  The only thing I had was faith and goals. Goals of having my own successful, famous, global business or being one day one of the youngest entrepreneurs or Β have an early PhD. Big hopes right πŸ˜‰ :D? Anyway, I had the aim of high score and achievements. So simply, I followed my heart and used my mind. I did what I see best to me. I didn’t study complete full hours, I used to watch TV shows or listen to music when I just get sick of it all. I made my favorite food or asked my mum, actually :D. I knew my duties well and knew my date and deadlines very well. I tried my best to enjoy it like hanging out mainly every weekend with my friends or got to the gym to get rid of the negative energy and on the exam days I practiced my own sport at home. I did it all hoping to get the best marks but I didn’t put that as a must. I just did my best and went for it.

Most importantly, is that I LOVED what I did. I picked the subjects that I love and loved to major at, so whatever I did was pleasing me more than just studying for it. It meant more. Therefore, an advice from me to you, do what you love. Don’t get obligated to something, because if you don’t love it, you won’t give it what it needs from you. When you do the something you love, you will find yourself doing it and spending time in it just as easy and gentle as the water flows.

That was about my studies but that applies to everything, to your job, your relationships, everything. So if you are reading this and there is that thing you that someone forced you to do, well refuse it! Do what you think you are best for and that you enjoy. Remember that if the thing you are doing is joyful to you then you will never need strategies to keep it always to the top πŸ˜‰

SO! What changes are you going to change now? What doesn’t need strategies to produce for you πŸ˜‰ :D?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx