People are the weirdest

It has been so long since my last blog, but life hasn’t been that easy and the reason? People, people, people. We are really weird a mystery that will never be solved.

People forget you within a night. If they want.

You know that feeling that you’ve been just talking to that person the night before and then comes the next day as if you last night was a day dream, you have never opened to this one. However, if they want something from you, oh my god! You will be like their best friend for life, that you might even think that you are going to be his best man or her bridesmaid, until they get what you have, or what they want from you.

Some are real though.

Just to be fair, not all of them. Some approaches you with good, real intention. It’s rare and not all of us meet that kind of people who really want to be friends with us or care for us. It’s hard these days to know who’s good and who’s bad but time and situations show us the good, real ones. Everything comes at a price after all. So just watch out for who really cares for you and who would hit your back with a sharp knife.

We are only human after all.

I get that with the hard life we are living, it became harder to find the right people or trust people, but isn’t that tiring? It is. I mean we are humans, we need to have friends, families, people we love. I know that but the falling apart always comes after trusting the wrong person. And it doesn’t matter how much we get warned we just fall for it, it has nothing to do with our IQ. Smart or not has nothing to do with our guts or feelings. We are human, we do mistakes ALL THE TIME AND WE WILL KEEP DOING THEM. The point here is how hard are we willing to fall apart because of that person? Here comes the IQ.

Forest

As I told you above what made me away for long was life and everyday I suffer from people. Their bad ambitions that can be built on the wreckage of your own ambitious and successes. That’s how life made us. a huge, big forest and we are fighting each other. The question here, how long are we willing to keep fighting?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

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Take care: False alarm

Yes, what you read up there is right. You are getting a false alarm. That alarm is your feelings, your wrong ones.

Not because someone says a word or two nice then that person is falling in love with you now, or because someone is shouting at your face means that they hate you. Wrong guesses and especially in feelings, can lead to disasters endings. Early judging can be one of the reasons that might not lead you to happy endings. In my point of view I guess people are like chameleons. We change our colors according to the situation to protect ourselves. Therefore, I believe that first impressions can be false 99% of the time. Therefore, keep the alarm activated for false feelings that you might develop.

However, we might feel the wrong way not only on first meetings, or people might not color themselves for protection. They might not protect themselves but maybe others, the people they love and care about. Also in that case activate your alarm, because at that specific moment they would be needing you the most. You might even lose them if you believed, because it’s the test. It’s the test to see if you care for each other or not.

Third type of false feelings alarms are those alarms that we get as a reflex of our original feelings. As for being angry instead of sad. That kinds of feelings can burn everything to the ground. Make you lose everything. It’s like as if you go onto a feelings coma that when you wake up from it, you will find that with your bare hands you turned everything to just Β shattered memories that even if you try to fix, it would be too late. You would be praying for a miracle to get your life to what was it before everything. You would be wishing to go back with time and stop yourself before being an idiot and destroy everything.

After all, we are humans. We would prefer our happiness and joy more than anything that we might turn that alarm off by our own will. We would want us to still feel these feelings even when we know it’s am lie. We would want to smile and feel happy a few more times, before we wake up. Before the dream turns into a nightmare. That might be one of the hardest choices you might make in your life. If you are gonna make it, just please think of what will happen when you wake up first. Know that you can’t stay sleeping forever.

Lastly, how could you overcome your wrong feelings?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

In case you are asking why we change

Everyday we learn new things and lessons that give us either shocks of who we are. These lessons re-shape us. Sometimes if sharpen or soften us.

We all come to the points when we think that we know ourselves so much. At this very moment is the moment where the change starts. No ones knows who is the person who is going to come out. We are always taken away by the wind to a new place in our minds that we know nothing about. Such as the moments we fall in love, we go away, when we lose the people we love and once we thought nothing can break us away. When we give promises that we are sure that we are going to keep but they are always broken. Secrets that we swore that we are going to take them with us to the grave but they escape us so early.

That’s human nature. That’s how life flows. Nothing stays as they’ve always been and if it stayed then there’s either a lie or a hidden truth you can’t see or refuse to see. Let things go as they are meant to be. Don’t stop a person from leaving or loving. Just don’t be scared to change. You might change to worse off course, but what’s more important is why? Why you changed to the worse or better? Some events gets either the best or the worst of us. Such as break ups, the lose of someone we love or the lose of our success or jobs. Sometimes those things makes from us stronger better people and sometimes it reveals the dark side in us.

What I am trying to say here is that don’t get upset or sad if someone told you ” Oh my god! You changed so much”and don’t blame anyone who changed. We all have that hidden part in our lives that non knows about it. We should respect that change and either advice that person and cope up with this change and make the best of it. As I always say we can’t make everyone satisfied and loving us and we can’t keep everyone by our side. We lose some people and will know others on the journey of life. Few only who will stay and those people are the ones we should always take care of.

Have you ever came to the part of your life that you changed so much at??How did you cope up with it? πŸ™‚

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Virtual Life

Sometimes I day dream of a virtual life. Sometimes I think of me as a successful business woman or star having a perfect lover and awesome friends, understandable family and stunning skills. 

  
Each time I am sad or upset I feel my friends are surrounding me, cheering me up or listening to some awesome words from my boyfriend and my family supporting me. Making me more and more confident and strong.

Also if I am so happy, I find who share this happiness without hatred or blame. It’s such an awesome feeling.

However, it’s not real. And makes me upset when I take off my headphones, back to real life. 

Ever since I’ve tried a lot to make the dream comes true, but destiny chooses our life most of times. 

I am now in a new school, new city, new life. I’ve never thought that will ever happen! But it did! I am also for plainsong a complete different career, chosen by my family that I didn’t dream of. While I am pretty sure that If I chose mine I am sure that my family would refuse it, so I thought to do the decision from the beginning. Hoping that faith may choose the better for me. 

However, I am doing my best to follow my dreams. So as if I didn’t have them at least I am proud of trying it under any circumstances πŸ™‚ 

But will this stay long ?? Like will it stay that other control our lives?? I hope all change soon πŸ™‚ 

Even if day dreams make me feel better and upset as well I won’t stop them as they are my painkiller , giving me hope πŸ™‚ 

I hope also for all of you to have what he is dreaming for ! Never give up ! It’s your life. 

Diary was never my best friendΒ 

  
Hi everyone , 

Thank you all for all the love in just 2 days πŸ™‚ . I had some liked and followers that I’ve never expected to have. I started this blog to write my thoughts hoping to see who cares or even read it. Actually, I think I did it πŸ˜€ or on my way to do it πŸ™‚ 

Thank you all so much ! I love you ! 

You know, I’ve always wanted to write what’s on my mind , just like if I am cleaning it from all what makes it busy. I tried to have a small secret diary. However, I didn’t like to write everyday before going sleep because I was always tired or lazy to do it. 

When I write or talk I feel more calm and at rest. As if I was holding heavy things and I let it down. 

Unfortunately, I didn’t have who listen to me all time . Although my mum helped sometimes, my friends and many people, but as I was growing up I found that those people started to decrease. My thoughts grew up with me, finding non to understand it, or barely understand me. 

So I thought about doing it by myself. As if non can understand me, at least I do. Dad also encouraged me to do it as a way of making him remember or know the important notes as fee school payment or so on ( stuff that I didn’t even find it match me but him). So I started to translate the idea to be for me! 

I started to write a diary ( semi- diary actually πŸ˜€ ) at the age of 12. I bought a sweet agenda, with all the stickers, colorful pens. However, as it was a good idea for most of times but not always. As I started to find myself going crazy. I wanted always for a good advice at hard days and for sure the diary couldn’t. It couldn’t tell me well done at doing improvements or blame me for bad things. 

I started to need a real person. I also was in a relation ship that I heard before that relationships give type of support that I didn’t even know πŸ˜€ . A near by neigh our or family member to be always for me. It was only me. 

I started to search internet. I found really awesome people and creepy people but I found some support. Maybe not all times but at least once in time or twice πŸ™‚ 

At the end I knew that owning a diary was like dad said TO ONLY RECORD EVENTS NOT EMOTIONS. My diary became a group of resolutions , list of books,or music that I want to do through the year, ticking what I’ve did ! πŸ˜€

So that’s one of the reasons I am here. Hoping to find who always care and support personally or say well done for any good thing I do or blame me for anything bad I do even if that person don’t know me πŸ™‚ at least I am sure I will learn more πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜€ 

Remember to always keep progressing ! Learning from all the experience you pass through or people you know πŸ™‚ πŸ˜‰ 

Always welcomed to the corner , 

Menna πŸ˜‰