Time passes, wish it would fly

A year ago, I had dreams. Big dreams, somehow unrealistic one even. However, I always had a complete faith in me. I knew that one day I might reach those dreams. But now, I don’t know.

I mean everyday I wake up, I cross my fingers that it’s going to be a good one. A day that I will do something extra, something that will restore that faith in my dreams back again. Just as I walk out from the door, my hopes hit the ground again.

The people I used to laugh with, talk to or even share simple, pure moments with, are no longer there. They are there but we say hellos and byes like strangers now. That if we even came to say them. I think I lost my track but did I? I started double thinking and doubting everything in my life again. Every choice I made. Just it’s too late for me to doubt anything now. People are hoping big of me but in fact I am hoping bigger.

All I dreamed of that all the years of pain, and hard working would finally pay. Pay as much as I worked for them. I think that’s fair, isn’t it? I really wish they would one day.

But after all of that I still have faith, it might have decreased but I still do and I am always trying to keep that way. I don’t want to waste all of my faith in seeing what other faithless people do. Spiteful person, or liar or even the stranger who ones were the nearest to me are no longer there, will never pull me down to the bottom. Even if they did, remember that always the bottom is the least you can get, the only way left for you to go by then is up.

It all depends on you. Do you want to stay at the bottom, or rise?

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

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Araf

Sometimes I wish I would just lay in bed all day. Just listen to music, read books, I don’t just stay away from life, from people and everything. Like i want a holiday from the world.

I’ve been feeling that a lot lately. Sometimes I just want to be out all day and enjoy my life by doing whatever I feel like. Here’s the trick, tho. I can’t do both. My life isn’t that easy to just do whatever I want and go outside or complicated enough that makes me stay in bed all day. It’s like I am somewhere between heaven and hell.

Sometimes I wonder how would it be to be in heaven, like the simplest life ever there can be. Or at least simpler than this. Just like the movies we see, you know. Sometimes I wonder how would it be like to be in the hell of life. Always on the fire line, on the run. The harshest life there ever. Other times, I think if I would wish the life I am living if I were in both sides, simple or harsh life.

Some days I feel like I am just in track, I know what exactly I am doing and where to go. Other days, I am just in “Araf”. I was watching a tv show the past day and a quote caught my attention. The quote said:

“Araf is to stay in between. Darkness and light, love and hatred, mind and madness, death and life, right and wrong, good and evil is to stay between.

I wanted to write this blog to let who is feeling the same like me now, that they are not alone. Also that as we are in such a place now, soon our visions will get clearer, our hearts will know their destinations and our mind will no longer know stay lost. Just patience, hard to ask but only patience, positivity and looking forward what can help us to get out of this. πŸ™‚

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Fed up yet?

We all have that person who makes you help him with their job/assignment and guess what! They don’t even remember you on normal bases. You are their favorite when a deadline is coming up or exams are just around the corner. There is that other type that uses you for who you are, like money, connections, intelligence and the worst part? They show that they care about you even though they are using you.

Those exactly the type of people who you always have the urge to punch them in the face. However, you don’t and mostly you end up doing what they wanted in the first place. I mean I am even mad writing about them, that my typing speed is faster than light now.

I know they are annoying, but they exist and they are not going to go away any time soon. It doesn’t matter how much you try to build your walls or make your boarders clear, they find their way e-v-e-r-y t-i-m-e. Therefore, don’t bother, just find a way to keep them within the space you want them to be.

I mean sometimes they actually need the help and it’s not affecting you, then so what. Helping is good, but not always though. In other words, just help when you can and when you can’t or will affect you then simply and politely just refuse. Some don’t understand words, right?! No problem! We are going to let them understand. Turn them down once, twice, probably they will catch up on the idea that you can’t or not able to help them. If after all of that they are still showing “disrespect” then unfortunately, their hearts might be a little broken. Just be brave and say it! Though try saying it in a good way. πŸ˜€

I know, not helping is a bad thing but sometimes, there are people who don’t need help but still they want to know what you got. Like that guy in college that would get straight As but still asks you about the answers of questions that he already knows, just to know what you got extra. Those are not help, that’s called time wasting. Instead, you could use that time to help someone who is really in need of help, like yourself or that other guy in the same class who really tries his best to learn the lesson but he can’t just keep up with the professor.

That was a long one, but at the end I hope I could show my idea in the best meaning of it. Some people really deserve to be helped and allowed in our lives. On the other hand, unfortunately, some don’t, they would just cause troubles more than anything. And my point here is to keep them away, for your own and everybody around you who you care about’s sake.

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

A dose of keeping up

Do you ever get the feeling that you want to just disappear to thin air?! Like you never existed or as if this whole life is just a dream/nightmare and you wake up into an easier life or more of an adrenaline rushed one? Just starting from the top. I do, and every night.

Lately, life hasn’t been going anyway easier or less complicated if even it’s passing by. Today is like tomorrow just like yesterday but with more stress, deadlines or troubles. It’s even hard to tell the days sometimes. C’est la vie!

However, when you think it can never go anywhere past this, you find it coming your way as fast as it can. Troubles of life I mean. But after all, a night out with your friends or family, a movie night with your boyfriend/girlfriend, or a nice book with a cup of your favorite drink and the best music would actually feel worthy after all the bad, weird days you pass. Although good times go by so fast, it’s sweet memories won’t fade.

Sometimes you hit rock bottom, but just remember that when you do that’s when it’s the least you can get and it will be the time to rise. And remember, most people are incredibly talented at dragging you down or turning their backs or even better! Stab you in the back. Again, c’est la vie! I like a quote from Harvey Specter , Suits The Tv show. He said ” Let them hate. Just make sure they spell your name right.” In fact, let them hate! Better than loving you in your face and hating you behind your back. People who care about you are the ones who you will find by your side at the hardest times. Not the ones who remember you when it’s their benefit or to spend good time with you. They are the ones who want to be next to you at your hardest times. If you found the person, then lucky you!

I know that all of that is nothing new, I might have even said those words a lot in many of my previous blogs. But, an extra dose to make us keep up with life isn’t bad after all. Right?!

Remember, you are a magnificent weirdo just like me, and people like us are rare to find πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜€

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Be easy and enjoy the moment (Tips & Hacks)

Hey everyone! Sorry for not posting lately but it has been so hard to find time for myself actually.

Most of us care so much about their image and how do they look more than how do they feel. For example, I know people who can actually carry a full bag of clothes, make up or whatever to get ready for a hang out after school or work. Well, I find that cool actually but it takes time so if you have an hour to enjoy after this all you have like 30 minutes. Not to mention, the rush and stress which makes the joy fades. So! I tried to be naturally on the fleek for the last couple days. Here is what I did:

1. Make sure my hair is as nice as it can be either by a sleeping routine hairstyle or using heating hairstyles that lasts for sometime.

2. Have masks or a programe of skin care which keeps the skin most of the time if not always glowing and fresh with the use of a good soap in the morning that matchs your skin type

3. For me I never cared for the clothes part actually because I always tried my best to have the best style I can by noticing other people fashion and making it as simple and it can for me. But a piece of advise, if what you wear is comfortable and chick in your eyes with some confident, you will be a runway model. So always make sure that even in uniforms you look the best you can.

4. Enjoy it! You saw yourself in the mirror this morning. Liked yourself till admiration, don’t bother again unless there is something really wrong that you need to check it. 

Don’t let anything stop you ! You have a unique magic that god gave you that gave to no one. We are different in different ways. Show your magic! 

So! What do you think about the tips ? Are you going to follow any πŸ˜€ ? Do you have any of yours ? Comment below maybe it can help me as well πŸ˜€ 

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Fake Human Relations war

We all try to keep everyone satisfied. We try to keep everyone by our side. Unfortunately, that’s impossible.

For me it looks like a war. Sometimes I sit by myself thinking, why can’t everything be easy?? Why can’t we just be true and happy?? 

Human nature is greedy. We technically want everything for the minimum loss. That can’t happen because we can’t have everything. Same with people. We want everyone to be our friend. We want that perfect boyfriend/girlfriend. We want those awesome parents. We want those ideal people we see in movies and tv shows. But basically, they don’t exist. We expect much that makes us hardly accept the truth.

And when I said in the title ” Fake Human Relations War” I meant it. Because if the relation is true there won’t be a war. I mean by war when you do everything to make this relationship works or to stay friends. If that relation is true you won’t have to do anything to survive it. 

Those relationships and friendships are costly too. I don’t mean costly as “money” I mean in “emotions” “pressure”. They keep us doing the maths all the time and thinking about our next action or word hundreds of times before actually doing them. That makes so much pressure on our feelings, emotions and sometimes they can cost us our jobs, other people who truly love us, and more awesome physical things..

Honestly, don’t run after someone you want. The person who loves you so much and wants you will try everything to reach you, he will help you when u need it without asking the help. He will forgive you most of the time. Moreover, you will have a free relationship or friendship with no hate or calculations of your actions and it will be fun! 

Don’t search for perfection. Search for peace, love and more importantly happiness πŸ™‚

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna xx

Be calm no matter whatΒ 

Calm is a word of peace and happiniess. Who doesn’t want to live calm ?? I think non !

With all the stress we are exposed to everyday, the stress of living is getting more and more everyday and if you didn’t stay calm it will affect your own life that you are stressed about. The question here is How ??

It’s hard to stay calm around such a missy situation but believe me what makes it worse is stressing. So try always to focus of the solution of any problem stop regretting and blaming. When you have the urge to cry for example, cry ! Yes cry. Don’t say that no I am strong and so on. You are strong that’s true but you are a human with a limit and feelings also remember that. 

Try to have a holiday from everything once in a while (even from your phone). So you can empty yourself from all the bad things and stress you passed through so far and continue in your full power. 

Don’t stress yourself for someone. Remember that it’s your life that your living not people’s. It also happens one time so enjoy it to max. However, live as if you live forever and work as if you die tomorrow.

Keep only positive vibes around you. That’s the key. Don’t let anything or anyone take you down. 

Finally, enjoy sticking to the people who care for you and love you and you have the same feelings for them. Keep only the happy things surround you. And make your choices wisely and what makes you satisfied.

Welcome to the corner,

Menna xx

Search for fun

Vacation is about to be over and school is around the corner. So I decided to seek for some fun even if it’s just simple thing or people call it silly.


I am going to year 11 and I still play those  video games like delicious Emily and dinner dash πŸ˜€ sounds silly I know but believe me this is from the stuff that makes me Happy.

I also read some sweet books before sleeping. It doesn’t have to be informative books or reading it for gaining information or sad story. Offcourse it’s a good thing but sometimes it makes you not interested in completing it. So I started reading sweet books that have some good words to learn and takes me to another world, giving me the chance to forget all that I passed by the whole day.

Most important is music ! Yup ! Music is my soul medication actually – that’s how I call it- sometimes I create a world that I wish I could live in real life and make stories in my imagination but I enjoy it as it maybe seem wierd I know πŸ˜€

Don’t give up a source that gives you happiness. Don’t care for who call it silly or wasting time. As long as it makes you happy then it’s not a waste of time, it’s not silly and worth doing it even once in a while πŸ™‚

Welcome to the corner,

Menna xx

Truth can hurts..

We all live that life without knowing what’s coming next..


Sometimes, I ask myself what if this whole thing is just a dream. What I am don’t exist in real life and that’s just a game or a tv show. I know it sounds crazy but I really have that feeling every time I think about my existence.. 

We live a big lie since we get to be born. We wish we could grow faster to be like mummy and daddy. As a kid we dream to grow up for example to get a lot of money to buy the games we like, we thought that’s the real dream and it’s that easy. Then growing as student in primary school , we dream of growing up so we can not do anymore homework or tests. Then growing up being teenagers, dreaming of that life of money, work, driving cars. We get to be so ambitious about that actually. Then we hit the adulthood to find something completely untrue and wired. 

We come to ask ourselves” was that really what I’ve been dreaming of??” ” is that the life of happily ever after I thought of having it??”

Life is hard but to get through it you should be harder, tougher, going through it like the fire gets through the metal to melt it, shaping it.

I spend so many nights thinking of that big lie I had back when I was young and start laughing till I cry. I have those words in my mind, saying not to give up. I wish one day I would listen to them or at least , believe them..

However, what I learnt so far that never make my pillow full of my tears at night. Never show my weakness. It’s hard to do I know because we all want someone to feel we are broken and hurt to help us. But unfortunately, I am working on it. I couldn’t find that person yet to show my tears or hurt. I hope to find that person soon. But still a wish or a hope, till I reach it I will pass through many things, many heartbreaking moments and refreshing happily moments. Even if I found that person. He is still a human who can’t just stop my life at. 

I know that truth hurts, especially when it shows a good thing’s badness.. 

Keep going because nothing deserves, because there is an end to the road we walking. What matters is how we end it and if the way we ended it will keep our names clean, giving people a good memory of ourselves..

It’s the never-give-up theory that you should keep it in your mind!

You have a lot to do and show this world. And you can do it on your own! Don’t stop your life to a person or anything! Life is going on so is you!

Welcome to the corner,

Menna xx

Say hello to holidays !!


Finally, my school days are over by today. It’s time to celebrate ! Right ?? But, what happens after celebration?? Like shouldn’t I find something useful to do for the rest of my free days ??

Well, that’s what I was thinking about like a week ago when I realized that school work is over. Time for another type of work. That work which gives you more experience that books in my school library does. πŸ˜€

I thought of different stuff that might be helpful and thoughtful for you and me as well, I mean let’s consider this as a thinking out loud together for 

The list of options and ideas for this summer:

As we mentioned summer then we should mention sea, beach and pool and that’s my type of celebration I think after chilling at home for like 2 or 3 days or maybe more πŸ˜€

Then comes to reading some books that might be useful and exciting. What about some series and movies so by the end of this holiday you would have seen a huge number of shows so when you talk with someone about TV or stuff , you will be 99% understanding what’s going on πŸ˜€

I mean for me it’s a problem because due to projects and high school I got no time for series and so on that when my buddies talks about any of those I feel ” man, why do I feel I am from Mars or something πŸ˜€ ” 

What about making some money? I thought about making jewelry and selling them online or for the neighbourhood , or a shift at Starbucks or fixing stuff such as PCs , cars or bikes even! Also it can be an online legal business πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜€

What about sports and working our bodies, I recommend that as a priority actually πŸ˜€

Above all of that try to know more good people. Try to Socialize more. If you are shy or not socializing go on ! There’s nothing to fear about and remember I am always here if you need any help πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜€

At the end of the day, I wish to all of you a happy summer and I will update what I am going to be up to as always πŸ˜€

Good luck and stay blessed.

Welcome to the corner,

Menna xx