One wish

If while shopping for the new year’s you passed by an antique shop and found an old lamp that you liked, then you bought it. After going home you tried to clean the dust on it and a genie came out of the lamp and asked you to wish one wish, only one. What would you wish?

(P.S. wishing to have more than one wish is not allowed πŸ˜€ )

For me, I would wish to relive all the moments of happiness that I lived for my first things, like my first mobile phone, yeah I am old enough that when i was a child mobile phones weren’t that easy to get one as a child, or my first big toy or my first trip with my family, or my first time I went to the beach. More and more, countless moments that as I grew up, they started to fad. the feeling for anything new meant a new start that would mean more responsibility or actually being an adult. Like my first day at university. I got the university I want, I was so happy but then I remembered that it’s just the start for something bigger. Life would never be easy as it used to be.

But the saddest part? That somehow with all the stress or new planning for life ahead I forgot along how to be that happy. Purely happy, just like a child. True, I learned how to be differently happy like learning new things or even being behind the wheel for the first time, yeah I like cars. That’s a different kind of happiness, maybe adulthood happiness, the one that comes with it’s worried or danger. It felt and tasted differently but never like the careless happiness of childhood.

What are you wishes? Share them below in the comments, maybe you can find you wish-mate.

Happy New Year Everyone! Wish this year brings you that happiness, success that you want and get you closer with who you love.

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

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Music and our lives, no IS our lives

I was watching a movie today and it was all about a guy who lived his life remembering songs, their years of composition and stories behind them. The idea of the movie was so good as his life, work and even love of his life was all related to music, then he wrote a book called “music and our lives”

What do you do when you wake up in the morning? If I know you for a little bit, I would say that it starts with music wether while having coffee or breakfast or in the car or walking to your workplace/school/university/college or even running in the morning or just listening to it so you say can begin. I think that’s what most people do, but by time music became not only “music and our lives” it became our lives itself.

It’s my loyal friend, who is always there for me. The one who stands by my side when I am sad and makes me even happier when I am happy. It became even my escape when I find no place to run to. The one who helps me get through the day everyday. A part of my day and obviously my life.

Life has been not easy for all of us, it has it’s ups and downs all the time and we cannot stop it. It’s life. But we can find us a boat to pass us to the land in such a storm. Mine has always been music, writing and books. Whenever I listen to music I always travelled away from my real world. With all it’s types. Classic music drove me to peaceful world where my mind found peace like never before. Pop has made me energetic and keeping the game on. Acoustic has always made me find myself as if I am in a place where no one can find me just me and the sky. Each type has it’s own specific taste for me. Even memories, some songs remind me of happy songs or sad ones like pictures. But it differs from pictures as it gave me the feelings that I couldn’t get from pictures.

Therefore, who ever is your loyal friend or your escape don’t lose. As one day when you can find no one or no where to go to; remember you have yourself and your escape πŸ˜‰

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

It’s not by the number

The number of people that get into your life can be so important to you that you forget that one day they might get out of it. In fact, you celebrate, chat and laugh as if you will never cry of this person. As if your laughs sound will ring in the sky forever.

Friendships, love stories, families and relatives. All of those are people who shape us, make us rougher with a thicker skin or make us lightheaded with a smiling heart and peaceful mind. Those same people can make your looks change, crash that smiling heart. It comes in waves. There’s nothing always the same or guaranteed.

However, what I can guarantee is that the more people get into your life, into your heart. The more it will get crushed, the thicker your skin will get and the more your looks will change. I wish people understand that the moment we welcome them to our lives, we are not just considering them people, they are a part of our story now. They have at least a role or two in each chapter of my life. Even when they are gone or left for better or worse they will always be remembered. They are simply parts of the big book of our life stories. We are all parts of each other’s life books.

Therefore, it’s just not by the number of people who are in your life. It’s just by the number of warm smiles, kind hearts around you. People who wish you the best. They appreciate you, unlike others who consider you piece of the puzzle, that if they lost it or ruined it, it won’t matter as you can be replaced with other pieces to complete their life.

We are way more valuable than that. You are way way more valuable that that. We deserve that kind of people who without them life really can’t keep going for them or for us. We are not disposable. We, humans, are much more weaker than glass we just look like titanium.

So, be careful who you allow to your life, and remember that it’s not by the number of people but what’s inside them.

Always welcomed the corner,

Menna Xx

Midnight

It’s midnight here in my country while I am writing this blog. Sitting on my bed, my back to my pillow, the music is playing and getting myself to sleep. But do I? Well, according to this blog I am not.

I am writing without checking the words or focusing on a specific topic as usual. Just writing for you and me. Because I am sure that this is most of us when it comes to midnight. Words, thoughts, situations, and more are clouding in your head racing with each other, making your sleep is either impossible or just making you lose that awesome feeling of falling asleep peacefully.

Those are the moments that I miss my childhood the most, when I used to sleep with a big smile on my face with nothing on the top of my head. Like now I think of how stupid I missed all the chances of sleeping when I was a child and all the mat time I made myself asleep at when I was in KG :D. I don’t know if it’s our minds that made our lives harder with remembering all the memories and deadline of our lives and bring them when you just about to sleep in or is it life that made us lose that one free enjoyment, which is resting and letting go of ourselves ad souls. That’s why sleeping is free. Not of money, or at least not only that πŸ˜€ I mean Freedom, like when you are sleep if the world is crumpling around you and you have nothing to do, at least you can break free of stress.

At the end of the day, Iit’s much of an advice as much as it’s something I know. Sleeping is such a great thing. Don’t give it up thinking of your exam tomorrow or that great project you are going to introduce to your boss. Know that without charge you can’t work just like your phone ;). As much as I will try to work on it and try to sleep peacefully without thinking of my missing university paper or my results or whatever it is, I hope you too try πŸ™‚

Wish a peaceful night tonight πŸ˜‰

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Gave up asking for it

By “it”, I mean love, friendship, kindness, happiness, or even sadness. It’s like they are no longer things that can just happen or have. Even those are now valuable currencies that you have to work for to get like money or anything in life.

Now when my parents or elder people talk about the past and how things where. Like how good friends they had or how happy they were with low money and simple jobs, they just as any fictional story I have ever read. Sometimes I even laugh at how we have reached these days. Laugh with a crying heart.

Now to have friend you have to be really nice, really friendly and it doesn’t matter how good friends or even how “besties” you are, don’t give then your secret or at least not all of it because life and people are no longer as kind and as trustworthy as we hear or read or watch. Life and dreams aren’t the same thing. You wish for true love and you find yourself in a weird relationship that you call love but it’s everything else other than that. You try to trust that one friend, just one not even group as we see in movies and that one personΒ  makes you face the worst surprise of your life.

When I list those facts to myself or my mum for example, she calls me cold. The idea is that I have to be like that. I have not to trust people with my secrets or be too caring because I am not actually cold, I am just trying to protect myself from heart-breaking or an un smiley face. Unfortunately, that’s what life has taught me. I would never wish for such a life, such an act. But that’s how the drama of life goes. Who changed the rules who made people actors with masks and hidden hearts? No one really knows. Maybe us, maybe wars, maybe situations and conditions people until now passed by. Maybe all of them.

I am just wishing one day the rules would change again and maybe I would be telling my children or even grandchildren about how happy easy life I had and hopefully they won’t laugh with a crying heart like me now. I can’t lose hope after all. You too don’t πŸ™‚

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Wait!

This world we usually hear it when it’s too late like when someone shout “Wait! Don’t go!” from behind you when i ‘s too late for you to wait or “Wait! You still can do it!” When you have already gave up. oh my lord, how many times I wished to hear it earlier. When I could actually wait and enjoy the moment.

Life makes us always in a hurry that the day pass that you don’t even know when did the sunset and the moon started shinning in the sky. Like another day has passed and I couldn’t listen to that song once again, or read that book that the dust has covered it from waiting. Another day is gone and again I am not even a step near living my life rather than racing with other people in this life. Just like that blog. It’s irony, but I have wanted to write that blog for 3 days today.

I wish I could listen to a song and really listen to it’s lyrics, enjoy it’s music not caring about my deadlines or sleeping early because tomorrow I have what to do. I wish I could wait before I have to, or before it’s too late. It’s like life has made us dissolve in it’s troubles and races just as easy as sugar dissolves in hot water. Life has even made every moment incomplete because our bodies might be living the moment but our minds? Won’t you be thinking about tomorrow’s meeting while sitting with your family or friends. A simpler example? Won’t you be thinking about when those two characters would break up while they just became together this episode?

I no longer know if it’s life’s quickness or our impatience, but I know that we really need to wait. To look around us, and give the moment what it really deserves, so we can live life rather than passing by it. It’s one life πŸ™‚

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

Those little things…

Do you ever listen to a song and wish if it was actually thing to touch and feel, not just to listen to like keeping it? Or look at the sky one night when the breeze hits your face lovingly and wish that you would keep that feeling, that memory forever?

It’s those little things that makes from life a great place to live at, even if just for a moment. Those little details in your lover or family. They might seem useless,or even a type of imperfection, but it stays the thing that makes from them the most perfect person on this land. Things that you and only you would understand, smile at when noticing them and enjoy them as if they are the last moments of your before your go out of breath.

They sometimes can be a part of the past. A feelings, a sound, a touch, a smell or even a look. Something that makes you remember someone or a moment that automatically draws a smile on your face or bring tears to your eyes. It either re opens wounds or heal them. When this moment comes it might be seconds but our mind makes them feel like a year or even years.

I always wish those moments to overwhelm me, to take me with them and to not leave me to the painful reality. Isn’t it injustice? They take us to a beautiful moment and then someone call us to bring us to reality. It might be injustice but at least we have them at our hard times, right?

Therefore, enjoy the moment! Reality one even as when they come as a memory later, they would be as strong as ever to break you free from the world for seconds. The painful ones and the happy ones. I can hear you asking about the painful ones, why keeping them?! πŸ˜€ The answer is that pain can sometimes remind us that we passed harder times before and we can pass those ones too! πŸ˜‰

Enjoy life guys! this moment in a sec would be a memory and it only be lived ones but remembered forever! How do you want to remember it, it’s up to you πŸ˜‰

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

The wonder of human nature

Do you ever like just sit like that observing people or pass a situation that makes you think of people, or actually human nature and start thinking “Wow! Humans are weird!”

That’s practically me everyday. I wonder especially about how people’s minds and feelings work. Like the difference between people with pretty short temper and others with such patience. How people can get so moody and some with the same mood and technically the same face. Like even if you shot them they would nearly die with the same look on their face :D. It’s really weird how human beings can be so different and still can be friends, lovers and families. I am sure that the human nature or psychology to be specific is such a miracle and has dozens of varieties.

Don’t even let me start at how people’s mind work, especially in relationships. Like you will find that person whose mind can compute millions and millions of lies in a second to just get them from a fight with their partner, and on the other hand you will find that person who can’t even lie to their boss so they can keep their job that pays their rent. There are also those who can build a bunch of theories to impossible scenarios that it’s possibility of happening is as small as the possibility of the presence of aliens.

At the end of the day, it’s human nature. The only thing that non can expert because believe it or not but it will keep shocking you everyday. If you want to really do something more enjoyably than watching a movie or a TV show, watch people! I do that actually πŸ˜€ When I have nothing to do, and tired of people who are around me, I start playing music, and think of people I met today. How where they, were they happy, sad, how did they act for such simple things. Or even grab a cup of coffee or ice cream in the hot and grab a chair away from people and start watching them. That might seem actually weird, I know, but you will find people amazing you with every single action or expression. πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜€

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

 

One star in the sky

I love looking to the sky, it makes me feel better as if i am actually flying and diving into it. However, I like looking to it at night more. But whenever I look at it, I find only one star or maybe two at most. I love how stars look as if they are pearls that are tossed onto the dark carpet of the sky.

I used to be upset when I don’t find a lot of stars in the sky when I look up. Until one day the electric current went out in the area and the lights of the houses, the street all were gone. That’s when I saw the sky in a different way, I saw the stars! So much! Beautiful! That I wished I could just live in a place where only their lights are there. But that was when I learned one more lesson, that a person can’t have all the beautiful things in the world.

Just like the stars and lights. If you want to see the light of stars, you will have to give up on the lights of the city and in such a life can we actually give up the lights of the city? Can we give up on the electricity and everything? It doesn’t matter what we think, there are facts that says no. Which means that we can’t live anything to the max of it. Because if we did, nothing will be left to live. That’s why who has money, doesn’t have peace. Who has happiness might not have fame. That’s why unfortunately when someone has everything or live everything, they might end up ending their own lives.

But that doesn’t mean that we stop trying! We should keep trying forever! We should try to find happiness even if that will make us lose something else, as long as that’s what we want. Sometimes, losing can be a great win that we can’t notice.

Just remember that the light of the stars in the sky is beautiful but you still need to charge your phone πŸ˜‰

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx

The endless shocks of life

It all starts when we are innocent children. We believe that the world is just as peaceful and beautiful as our parents show us. We believe that our parents are the best people ever, the perfect people. We even believe that we are perfect, just as our mothers says. But at the end of the day, it all becomes just lies or half truths that as we grow up, it hurts to un believe them. And whose fault is it? Perfectly, Nobody.

Just because parents want to protect their kids or kids for not knowing the world around them yet. The fault is when we actually know them late or refuse to believe them. That’s when we get to find the paths of our lives, it’s either people be injustice for us or we are injustice towards ourselves.Β  It’s like when they know what we don’t know and they don’t tell us and keep it for themselves for a good reason or not. The same goes when we know the truth ourselves but we don’t want to believe, it’s like we keep that truth from ourselves and the shocks in life goes on and on.

It’s true that life isn’t always black and white. That the shades of grey are there too, we get the fact as we grow up. As when we are kids we believe that it’s completely white and sometimes through life we get to the point to believe that life is so dark. While the truth at the end always shocks us. It’s even that shocking when we figure out that even our blind spots towards the people we love is as strong and hot as the fire, when we think that we know them the most.

It’s life! Full of surprises! The good ones and unfortunately the bad ones. The only thing we can do is to get used to it and skip the shock as fast as we can so we can live life to the max πŸ˜‰

Always welcomed to the corner,

Menna Xx